Tattered Posted June 19, 2003 Report Posted June 19, 2003 (edited) Well okay this is more like poetry than a topic for disscussion.. However I honestly started out just writing in essay format, but my brain simply releases poetically. One things for sure this is my true life reality. What do I do? The closer we get to something that lasts, the further away my emotions detach. I curse the emptiness-void where love should preside, but everything real in me I habitually hide. My brain hurts from all sides, all the nerve endings are fried, from the words that replay I'm like a zombie-numb on the inside.Is that your voice chanting I'm hopeless and worthless, or is that mine? I don't even remember anymore who said it or how many times, you make me feel so freaking dumb all the time. Like all I have to offer is my body and grind, Why don't you take a minute open your mind, I gaurantee something more you will find. But just stop it's to late to rewind, we just gotta leave the past there behind, or our sight for the future goes blind. Once you get stuck nothing undoes that bind, like a life ending contract you've signed. So used to the sound everyone keeping me down, Even do it myself when no one to blame is around. Every relationship is the same as the last, I admit this but I'm still so stuck in the past. In a fairytale ideal I'd have dreams that I see, But to repeat fail is an age old human tragedy. I saw you checking my ass and you think I'm pretty. C'mon this is not a case of love at first personality. I'm begining to think that you simply craved the chemistry between you and me. Yeah I wonder when we make love in your dreams if it's even my face that you see. I think that's as deep as this goes for our relationship catastrophy. Every situation for a new relation comes to this painfull realization that it was over before it even left the station. You are blind and you won't ever see me. But don't feel so bad cuz if you came any closer I would make you leave. I was born to suffer, I was born to cry, I was born to be a bad example and then die. Edited June 20, 2003 by Tattered
Archaneus Posted June 19, 2003 Report Posted June 19, 2003 This is realy great. I actuallly enjoyed it so much I used teh last line as my MSN name, since it is so close to what I have said and thought so many times. Don't worry though, I gave you credit
Ayshela Posted June 19, 2003 Report Posted June 19, 2003 *nod* said it and thought it so many times that when i finally found the t-shirt i had to buy it.. it says "I have come to the conclusion that my sole purpose in life is to serve as a bad example" hey, everyone has to have *some* purpose, right?
Justin Silverblade Posted June 19, 2003 Report Posted June 19, 2003 Been there. Sometimes still am. Good work though. Very powerful poetic prose. Thanks for sharing. - Justin
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