Solivagus Posted May 6, 2003 Report Posted May 6, 2003 (edited) I was wrapped in darkness, finding comfort in its embrace. When I was cold I surrounded myself in a blanket of anger. Anger against myself, my life, my very being. Rage kept me going when my body started to weaken. I hated the way my body responded when hurt or damaged; my hatred sustained me through those times, toughening me, strengthening me. I shut all other emotions away. Foolish ideals for foolish people. I locked them away in the deepest corner of my mind, locked them tightly with bonds of the pure disgust I had for them. I was safe. Protected. Strong. And then the light came, tearing my cloak to shreds. Ripping it asunder and unlocking the door where my other emotions were stored. Tears ran down my face. They began as tears of pain as the searing ray struck down wall after wall of my mind. The tears slowly became those of joy as I experienced the emotions I had avoided for so long. The light was that of love. But now I am weak. No matter how much I try I can't shake off the light, can't lock my emotions away as I had done before. Now I am at the mercy of emotions long forgotten, and for the first time in my life I am afraid. I only hope that the light is enough to keep me safe... Edited May 7, 2003 by Solivagus
Alaeha Posted May 6, 2003 Report Posted May 6, 2003 Wow... If not for the fact that I've never even spoken to you in real time, I could swear you'd ripped that out of my head about three months ago (maybe four) and just now posted it... Oh well. If it helps any, I know how you feel... Absolutely terrified, if you're like me in that one... You can always talk at me, if you'd like. (That applies to everyone, of course...) *Hugs*
Brute Posted May 7, 2003 Report Posted May 7, 2003 Change is inevitable. Embrace it, and welcome it, for it is both the light and the darkness of our souls that strengthen us. Only knowing one of those two aspects of ourselves breeds weakness, despite what we tell ourselves. Live! Live each day fully, and work hard at allowing the past to remind and teach, not lead. Your heart and mind should always do that for you.
Cheyenne Posted May 7, 2003 Report Posted May 7, 2003 I like this. However anger can be both destructive and constuctive....just make sure you know where you will land.
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