Solivagus Posted March 26, 2003 Report Posted March 26, 2003 Sorry for all I’ve done, I won't get in your way. and by the time you read this, On my death bed I’ll lay. I'm worthless and lonely, So I think this is for the best. I needed to kill myself, and put myself at rest. Not like anyone will care, Or anyone will bother. I was just a silly kid, who was hated by his mother. I do not want a funeral, Don't go the expense. Just chuck me away in the rubbish, You know that it makes sense. Give all my stuff to the poor, and burn all the pictures of me. I don't want anyone to know, That I’ve been so cowardly.
Damon Inferel Posted March 28, 2003 Report Posted March 28, 2003 (edited) *sighs* Meow... i love suicide. Don't go dying on me... i won't be able to hear any more of your talent. Don't mind him... both him and I are a little morbid. We've had our share of death for now... Thanks for the fix. Edited March 28, 2003 by Damon Inferel
Rune Posted April 9, 2003 Report Posted April 9, 2003 Something about the sing songness bothers me. I think it is because each rhymes with the line directly below it. But that is a personal preference, and the poem should not be altered simply because of it. The subject is presented well. The last few sections really tie into the first few. The comment regarding his/her mother and the final statement about burning the pictures and the coward proclamation makes it very strong. Thank you for sharing!
Chanz Posted April 10, 2003 Report Posted April 10, 2003 this was sucha sad and moving poem. you really are talented. but nothing is ever bad enough for you to commit suicide.
Peredhil Posted April 10, 2003 Report Posted April 10, 2003 Hmmm. I suppose it depends on perspective and motivation. If the suicide is trying to prove that they really WERE that upset or needy - they don't get to see the results. The only people who hurt and care are usually the ones that the message wasn't aimed toward in the first place. The rest move on quickly in a strange embarassment, ignoring the sudden senseless-to-them death the way they'd ignore someone passing gas in an elevator. If the suicide has reached the ultimate realization of a Godless Existentialism, then they realize the utter futility of attempting anything at all, including life, and expire from frustration at the meaninglessness and futility of it all. If it's a social statement, or an attempt to show how much they think their life sucks, the message is usually lost. Most suicides of this type tend to be accidents - they wanted the effect of the attempt, but wanted to hang around to see if it got the desired results. Oops. Now the dangerous ones are those who feel so badly, for so long, that they'd rather feel nothing at all. Unable to afford self-medicating drugs such as alcohol or heroin to numb themselves out, feeling hopeless and trapped, they still have the energy to act - and so they quietly and without fanfare kill themselves. Statistically they are male, late twenties to early thirties, don't bother leaving a message because they really no longer care what anyone thinks, and plan it quietly and carefully. They leave oddly polite touches like carefully locking the door with a warning not to enter, so as not to shock the cleaning staff, as though embarrassed at the necessity of inconveniencing someone yet one last time. Are you in a different category, or does one of these fit? You can find a great deal of empathy for pain on these boards, you might be surprised at how creative types seem to suffer. Which gives a strange numbness, in turn, to just whining. After all, people who've endured abuse, incest, outrage, humiliations, rejections, misunderstanding, torture, loss of parents or parents removed legally, etc, etc, etc, somehow have trouble listening to a papercut. On the other hand, it's not a competition, and everyone's pain is unique and powerful to them, and should be acknowledged and respected. I am rambling this morning, aren't I? I suppose that this was prompted by what I saw as the drama and 'fishing' nature of your 'want to bet?' mystery statement. If you want help - state the problem and the type of help you want. If it is essential to you somehow that you need to be drawn out with mysterious comments over a long dialogue - state it up front so we know where your goal is. Some of those who frequent the boards would want to help you, as a Karmic payback for those who helped them, but have limited time to commit to what comes off as gaming. Hugs and moves on to the next thread.
Rune Posted April 10, 2003 Report Posted April 10, 2003 Answering that question is no different than answering whether or not you think God is the all mighty being and will make everything ok in the end. It all depends on how you believe and what you honestly feel the best way out of a situation is. I am not condoning suicide, but I have met people in the past who do feel that it is the answer when things are too hard for them to handle. Fortunately those people have also been some of the strongest I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and as a result they take the thoughts of death very very seriously and will probably outlive us all because they fight even harder when things get alittle too hard to handle.
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