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[Tasslehoff]

I kinda like what few people are doing. So I think I will start putting all my poems into one thread.. Some of these poems may push the limits, or some might be bit strong.. Just a fair warning..Its you have any comments you could put em here, or in the Critics Corner [ I think thats right? ] But anywho.. Heres 1.

 

Indecent Love

 

 

If you stepped into my head,

Saw the ensuing insanity,

Would you still love me?

If I jumped off the bridge,

Played the game; Took another step,

Would you follow me?

If you woke up in my bed,

Two souls a touching

Would you still hold me?

If I just walked away,

Scared of life and the paths we run,

Would you come and find me another day?

If I made you ever so mad,

Imitating the way you walk; the way you talk,

Would you see the mistake and forgive me?

 

..Or..

 

Is this the last time?

Will you no longer stand by me side?

Just throwing everything aside; Right back into my face,

Falling towards the ground; Spinning at an ever so unforgiving pace,

With all the rest; It doesnt matter; You've lost all that grace,

I dont understand; What turned you this way; I lost you someplace...

Edited March 20, 2003 by Tasslehoff - AngelXIIX

[Peredhil]

I like this. I think we all feel insane inside our own heads, if we are ruled by passion.

 

 

I look forward to catching all your poetry in one play, where I can work through it and watch your growth, like counting rings in a severed tree trunk.

[SoaringIcarus]

Nice twist at the end. The author's self-admitted naievety; I can really appreciate that.

 

-Icarus

[Tasslehoff]

-= Lifeless Love =-

 

As I starred into your eyes,

I believed in you and me,

I handed you my heart,

But all you do is hand me lies in return,

There was no goddamn truth in our story together

Stabbed me in my back you did,

Not knowing what to do,

I sat down with a picture of you,

Letting the knife slide across my veins,

The blood flowing to the ground,

Not thinking, Just *relieving* my pain,

I crumble to the cold marble floor,

My eyes wandered towards the picture of you,

But all I could see was the enveloping darkness,

The light is gone forever,

I passed away,

Down to the depths of the damned hell I fell,

Looks as if I wont live another damned day,

But I don't see the pain in your eyes,

I don't see the tears as you cry..

 

But of-course, They say I am dead.

 

Sometimes life is crap.

[Archaneus]

That's great, Tass. I really like it, actually, I really like them both.

[Zariah]

Undecent love… eep! There is no such word as “undecent” Did you mean Indecent?

There is rhyming here, irregular, but a nice touch.

 

Lifeless Love…. Wow, this is really sad. I hope you don’t really cut. I used to cut, and it was not the way to go…. Also, your scars will haunt your future. If you ever want to talk to me about that sort of stuff, I’ll share my story. I like the end word, dead, being bolded.

[whynotsin]

Such pain in your words. The pain of loss sometime can be to much for a person. That's when you hav to keep insight the goal........TO LIVE A DEE-LISH LIFE.

[Tasslehoff]

Sure -Undecent- is word.. I just made it up. lol.. Yea, I guess I meant indecent love.. and no. I dont cut myself.. It was just a relief of anger and depression.. thanks for your concern though. =)

[Tasslehoff]

Reliving

 

They told me there was no way,

It just wasnt going to be happening,

Told me straight up it couldnt be done,

Just another damned battle that couldnt be won,

They throw me excuses; one right after another,

You know what I am talking about,

But you ignore it; Too stubborn; Too good for it all,

Trying to break through the walls,

Forcing my way in; Making a lil' room to breathe,

Pushing me out again; Slap in the damned face,

Down the steps I fall; Thrown back into my place,

Back to the hell; The hell I want out of,

Asking for your help; But your too damned stubborn; Too damned good for me.

[Tasslehoff]

=- Silent -=

 

As I starred into your eyes

I promised the world,

I promised that we wouldn't become futile lies

 

Now I sit all alone, Silent

Listening to the world cry

As they bring up those false lies

 

All I wished for was the truth

All I needed was for our love to live

Yet the flowers wilted, Dreams Stopped

And soon following my heart stopped beating

And suddenly there was...

Silence!

 

I wrote this SO long ago.

[Tasslehoff]

My first ever attempt at a bit of *poetry*

=- Self-Glory -=

A World, Self centered, self indulged, the meaning?

A meaning of hell's dreams come true,

the love gone, the faith disappeared what's left?

The bubbles popped, the wealth disappeared,

The lives end,

All to lead you to hell,

Where there is only one thing different,

Is that the people above have no meaning for

You are enslaved, F :censored : G enslaved with hells most selfish

The people with lives they have ended.

The people like me!

[Tasslehoff]

-= Life's End =-

 

As the tears fall from my eyes

All I can do is die

Put the knife to my wrist

Think once again of that G' Night Kiss

As I think of the past

I see the stupid mistakes

But how can I change these high stakes

For now my coffin is closed and sealed

[Tasslehoff]

-Sometimes, you just wish for a chance.. Sometimes you just hope for a chance, sometimes.. you get that chance..-

 

'~^~ Long Days ~^~'

 

Open up your eyes; Take in the warmth,

Today is your day; I will do anything,

Hold you tight; Day in and day out,

Baby, all through the night,

Open your eyes; Give it a chance,

Dont run away in fright,

I'll do my best to make everything right,

No need to rush this; Takin things slow,

I am not going to run away; Concentratin' on you,

Baby, day in and day out; All throught the night.

[Tasslehoff]

No one comments.. Are people reading? *looks deep into audience..* Anyone home?!?!?

 

 

Dreams of You & Me

 

They say I dont understand,

They say I need to stop hiding behind a blanket of the past,

They say what we had just wont be,

BUT they judge too fast,

They dont see the images I see,

I cant let go of the you,

You helped me start anew; brought a new life to me,

But what the hell do they care,

So locked up in their own dreams,

Jealous of you and me,

But that is no longer needed,

For I turn around and you've disapeared,

So the truth; We all see

Lost and Confusud,

It was all a dream; You and Me

[Blondemoon]

Yep, Tas, there are people reading. Like me. Who read, and want to comment, but when I get to the post a reply screen, can't for the life of me think of what to type in here...my mind goes completely blank. (it's happened several other times...in other threads...very unnerving)

But, I do have to say that I really liked Life's End and Dreams of You & Me. Filled with an almost complete understanding of the emotions behind both of them. And you brought up a good point in Dreams....although it's not always true. There are always people who will never see what you see, never see a situation the same way you see it, sometimes won't even bother to try. It's rough when you're dealing with what seems like a sea of those people.

 

Whoa... I really started rambling there....

 

Good work Tas! We do read your work, even if we don't always comment.

[Tasslehoff]

This is a more of a rant or rave it seems. But it still gets my point across.

 

The Miserable Me

 

Cant think straight; Thoughts thudering in my head,

Once again doing wrong; Causing pain,

Pain; Pain ever growing in my heart; Stabbing my heart; Wishing death upon me,

I see the mistakes; Steps retreating; Never gaining,

What the hell does one do; Cant just disapear,

Cant; Wont; Its not possible; In probable; I am too scared!

No ones here; No one to call;

No shoulder to lean on; To cry on; Once again abandoned

My cursed f g mistakes; The only blame,

..Me.. Not you.. Me.. Not him.. Me.. Not her.. Me.. Me.. Me..

 

 

*Had to edit the bad word!!

Edited March 27, 2003 by Tasslehoff - AngelXIIX

[Tasslehoff]

These constant conflicts,

I dont think you see the results,

The hardships they inflict; The pain they cause,

They tear us apart again and again,

Fighting back the tears with yells of pain and hate,

Never getting anything accomplished this round,

Should we go another? Try again? Start another futile battle?

Its like they are never ending, they never fade,

Forever! It Continues Forver, Eternity passing us by again and again,

You say I dont appreciate you,

I say you dont listen to me,

Here we go again; The battles rage on,

Thoughts Raging inside our head,

Feelings seeping out our soul,

Its like they just dont fade,

Forever! It Continues Forver, Eternity passing us by again and again,

 

 

 

Its titled, Forever Again and Again..

[Ayshela]

The Miserable Me, eh?

hey..

you...

shoo! get out of my head! go on, shoo!!

(psst... you really wouldn't like it in here)

[Tasslehoff]

Alright so things have changed a bit around my life.. Its crazy. I would never have expected to fall for someone so quickly. It hit me harder than anyone could have expected.. The worst part, Im leaving. I cant stop it, but I know that I gotta make the best outta of it until I leave.. So I am going to post a HAPPY poem.. yes.. I know.. This one wasnt written just for Rachelle, since well, I havent had time to write one, since she has been with me since Thursday, maybe tonight? well heres another one:

~*~- For you ~*~-

 

I would die for you,

I would die for you,

I have been truly dying just to feel your touch,

Just to know you are mine.

 

I will cry for you,

I will cry for you,

I will wash away your pains with all my tears,

I will do my best to drown away your hindering fears.

 

I will pray for you,

I will pray for you,

I will sell my soul for something pure and true,

To be with someone like you, all I want is you.

 

I see your face no matter where I am walkin,

I hear your voice no matter where I am talkin,

I need you to believe in me,

I cant stand of to the side and be ignored.

 

I will burn for you,

I will burn for you,

Feel the pain for you,

Twist the knife and bleed my aching heart,

and tear the loneliness apart.

 

I will lie for you,

I will lie for you,

I will crawl on hands and knees so you will see,

you are just like me, and I know we can be happy and free.

 

I will wait for you

I will wait for you,

Make room for you,

Sail ships for you, just to be close to you, be a part of you,

Because I believe in you, because I believe in us, because I believe.

 

I would die for you,

I would die for you,

I have been truly dying just to feel your touch,

...If only you were mine, you would see...

 

For reference, I heard a bit of a song a while ago and went from there and this is what I *created*. I give credit to Romeo and Juliet.

[Tasslehoff]

Constant

 

And once again its happened to me,

Not quite whole; You shatter my image,

Down I fall into the darkness; Same old never ending journey,

I dont understand why I cant see,

These constant hopes, These constant wishes,

They are all but factors in my own doom,

Dreams of your loving hugs and kiss' ,

Now turned to nightmares; Same old never ending journey,

You haunt my ever waking moments,

You haunt my ever sleeping dreams,

Never again shall it all be the same; In this same old never ending journey.

 

 

- just reposting it -

[Tasslehoff]

im getting lost. I cant remember what I have posted, so hopefully this isnt a repeat. lol

 

 

 

Weeds

 

Its been two long months

Havent seen your face or heard your voice,

Slowly weeding you out of my system,

Cant believe it ended this way,

All alone these days; But its ok,

Standing on my own two feet again,

No longer tied down by your imature games,

Watching the past float away to the sky,

Another memory bursting into flames,

Putting you behind me, Its my turn to say "Good-Bye"

.....Good-Bye.....

[Tasslehoff]

Hidden Questions

 

dont turn away from me now

listen to these whispers

flowing from my lips to your ears

can't you what lies between us

the past buried 6ft underground

-just wanted to love you..

can't you see what is meant to be

why do you run and hide, fight the destiny

the stubborness lies in your soul-

nothing to gain from fighting

these words written by the hands of pain

you will see one of these days

opening your eyes, letting the light in

-just wanted to love you, unconditionally true

why do you run and hide, fight the destiny

the stubborness lies with in your depths

along with your lies and immaturity

all mixed in with falsified purity

can't you see our inner-twined destiny-

breaking the glass as my whispers heighten to screams

screams of painful memories

re-lived through your blood-stained words

just wanting to love you

can't you see, I just wanted to love, can't you see...

 

- I find the ending to this poem very powerful, not quite sure why. But I do.. My favorite part.

[Tasslehoff]

You know. I am feeling really depressed today. I dont know why. About everything in my life is going well. I just dont get it.. I just want to be happy.. Is that just not possible..

 

To & Fro..

 

I never was quite the same after that day 2 long years ago,

Many times trying to start anew with life and love,

It all failed and crushed my hopes and dreams into nothing but pebbles,

Standing knee deep in the tears my soul poured,

Looking up to the sky; Looking for a ray of light,

Flying bye once, Flying bye twice,

A white dove lands upon a simple summer sassafras,

Giving me hope, Giving me dreams, once agian I feel whole..

It all starts to fade again, a relaization hits me hard,

Once again I must leave the one I care for, Once again I will be empty.

 

 

It kinda sucks. I dont know. bleh

[Tattered]

This piece reaches me. I seriously feel the same, all the time. I hoped I wasn't the only one feeling crazy-inperfect.

 

 

Thank you for introducing this place to me! I am Fallen Star from OD. I really like the feel of this place. I will catch you later.

 

Natalie

[smallscale_mind_games]

The kender-protecter has rhythim!

VERY NICE!

I likes them...

and I read them ALL

Edited April 22, 2003 by smallscale_mind_games