Guest opesopacus Posted August 22, 2002 Report Posted August 22, 2002 you [my sweet dear] draw me back to square one . . . again I decide I hate you I hate you I hate you then somehow I go crazy and decide I love you again . . . what am I thinking ? ? but now, I’m back where I started ; I hate you actually , you hate me I’m sorry I’m not good enough I’m sorry, okay [no, it’s not okay] it’s not my fault I was born , I’m sorry . . . you bitch how is it that I’ve gone through my entire life and have never done anything right ? why is it that I haven’t done anything to deserve anything ? what am I , a piece of @#%$ ? what am I , the @#%$ lowest life form on earth ? I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve anything. I’m a piece of @#%$. I shouldn’t live, I don’t even deserve to die – I haven’t done anything to deserve an end to my suffering just sit here in purgatory for all eternity because I don’t deserve anything I am worthless
Peredhil Posted October 23, 2003 Report Posted October 23, 2003 I would say something about investing one's self esteem in others (it over burdens them when carried with their own). I would say something about laying responsibility on someone else for one's emotions (but emotions are tricksy and circumstances can force choices). I would say something about the manner in which attitude filters perception until one can only remember what they expect - such as recalling nothing done right. But. When someone has no self-esteem, correcting them is a razorblade on wounded soul. When someone has been rejected, hostility toward the source is quite natural. When someone is in pain, all wisdom and sayings are platitudes. So I'll just say I hope tomorrow lends a brightness.
reverie Posted October 26, 2003 Report Posted October 26, 2003 (edited) tapping into raw emotion and being able to effectively express is not easiest thing to pull off... With time's tempering...and some painstakingly disciplined honing... I think this artist could go far... *wonders off to the woodshed... to contemplate and do some honing of his own..* revery the dreamlost "reality seemed better in my sleep...(me?i think,maybe...)" the dream continues... Edited October 26, 2003 by reverie
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