Guest opesopacus Posted August 11, 2002 Report Posted August 11, 2002 paralyzed cling to the words of others copy copy unable to produce anything that is mine unable to express , explain , let go just keep it all corked up , festering on the inside about to explode . . implode spew on the inside slowly puss out . . . drip out . . . ooze. . . just copy , feed off of others unable to create , make just an empty vessel full of rage at self , jealousy of others , self - denial , self - hatred , unacceptance no compassion - just shut up ! damn you , I want to run away from myself repress some more , that is easiest the quest on the inside is hard push away all those who care , all comfort stand alone in the freezing cold , knee deep in hatred , naked on the dark sea shore , freezing in my self torture , but not wanting release . I hate you all.
Rahsash Geldich Posted August 11, 2002 Report Posted August 11, 2002 One of the hardest lessons I ever had to learn was that I was not a bad person. That is a hard realiztion to make when you have carried those feelings for as long as you can remember, before youe even knew words to describe the feelings. Try to accept, and do not fear allusions.
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