Deep Inside .Me.

[Guest amcstarry]

Ok, I made this for a very special person to me. I wanted to show how much I cared about him so I figured making this picture would help, but then I went and wrote a poem for it too. He is a member of this site so I wont be to suprized if he see's my post lol.

 

 

and here is the poem, the place I uploaded it, MSN, resized it so you cant read the poem!

 

 

Heaven on Earth.

Looking into your eyes

Makes me dream of a place

A place far from here

A place of eternal happiness and love

In this place, that is known as heaven

I see myself

With a smile

Because I've been chosen

to live among the great.

But for every good

there is a bad

This bad is far worse

then you could ever imagine

Hell

Where the fires burn

and where all evil lives

The shadows that escape

drag more down

To live there for eternity

Instead of enjoying the great life above

Some can escape

the cold hands of the black demons

Their guardian angel rescues them

For me I have escaped

You are my guardian angel

and you have rescued me

The light that you hold

brightens my life

bringing the happiness

that was once only held in heaven

down to earth

So now I can live a life of happiness

and once I've shut my eyes for the last time

My joy will follow me to a new land

Where I can live among the angels

and be with the angel of my heart

If you do not save me from the fiery below

then my dreams

will never become alive

they will be shattered

the moment I die

Rescue Me.

 

 

 

*hugs Michael*

[Lady Celes Crusader]

This is a lovely poem. I can feel the joy this special person gives you through your words. Keep them coming

[reverie]

I love your structure... great job... welcome... good luck with the love thing...

 

 

revery

the dreamlost

"spin it round again" juliana hatfield

the dream continues...

[Peredhil]

Multi-talented and well done.

 

When someone gives you a 'leg-up' on life, their greatest reward is to see you grow to stand on your own as an equal.

 

But tributes are a feedback that is always wonderful!

 

Hugs

 

Welcome to the Mighty Pen site, M'dear. Hope you'll come back frequently.

 

-Peredhil

 

 

We do not write because we want to; we write because we have to.

W. Somerset Maugham

[Guest White Rose Oujisama]

Aww...

 

That's a really well done poem, and the picture is amazingly crafted...the flow of your poem and your word choice really brings it to life, and gives great insight about how you feel...I really like it...

 

-Ouji-Sama the appreciated and greatly flattered...*blush blush*

[Guest amcstarry]

thanks

 

I have a lotttt more poems but they are a lottt different from that one. If ya want to see them just tell me though, but none my other ones have pics with them. I could make pics for them but I'm to lazy to do that lol.

[SoaringIcarus]

I want to see many more of them, please. Welcome.

 

-Icarus

[Guest amcstarry]

ok...

 

I have really bad gammer, most of these havnt been edited yet, feel free too lol.

 

 

.I'm all alone.

In this great big world

A shadow dancer I be--

A shadow follower I am.

Into the night, you'll find me.

In the depths of hell is where I'll be…

If death is your wish,

then I'm your girl.

Killing is my hobby--

--but also a chore.

I'm so sorry father…

For I have sinned…

Two seconds ago was my last confession.

.Two seconds more with you.

I'll be back there again…

Please don't send me back!

I'm not mental!

I just have problems…

But they're only in the head!

So can't you see?

I was meant to be free

So leave me be

--and I can be me.

.All Alone.

 

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.Can you hear death?.

I see blood--

dripping down your face…

A hole in the head.

A gun in the hand.

But why?

Was life a living hell?

Did you see the fires at night?

I feel your pain…

I hear your cries…

But did I help?

No.

Now I see you,

--hearing your voice

--screaming your insanity

I hear the shot,

the bullet going through your head…

but also through my mind.

My dreams shattered, yours destroyed.

Why do I see your death even

Before you start to die?

Because that's how I want you.

As dead as the cold soul that

was held inside yourself.

Now I take the gun

--and see myself like you

Lifeless.

Dead.

But do I wish suicide,

or do I not?

Boom goes the gun…

I fall to the floor.

The gun at my side

the red liquid escaping me.

I take my last breath--

Hearing my death…

.Redrum.

 

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.Insanity.

Is it real or a hoax?

Did you try and commit suicide

but not succeed?

As did I, but I'm still here.

What a pity.

Wouldn't the world be so much better

If you and I where gone?

--But it's too late

We have tried but cannot leave

I'm sorry Mr. President for screwing the world

I can't help it

It's something I do

But something I shouldn't.

Don't lock me up

It'll only get worse

I'm alone in this world

Or are you here by my side?

I will never know if I do this

A gun to the head

Is it the answer?

Should I try once again--

to do what I've been trying to do for so long?

But if I succeed will anyone care?

Will I be missed?

Too late now, no turning back

What's done is done.

To the fires of the underworld I go

But I was already there…

I was yet to discover

For my life was a living hell.

Now I see that what I have done

has not solved anything…

But only made it worse.

I'm sorry Mr. Councilor,

but your advice did not work.

Look what I have done

--and now its the end

My world in a swirl…

my mind in a hole…

my life in hell.

Are you crazy?

Because I'm Insane

.And that's just the way I am.

 

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.Heart Broken.

Stick a stake through my heart.

Wait. There's one already there…

My cracked heart bleeds,

hurt from the one that I love.

Why must you do this?

Now my life is over,

My heart disowned.

No point in living now…

--my heart is turned to stone.

So how to kill my crying soul?

Maybe a overdose…

--or suffocation.

It all works--but which to chose?

.I know.

I stick a gun in my throat,

a bottle of Advil in my hand,

a knife in the other.

I shall swallow this Advil.

I shall stab my already bleeding heart

---then I shall shoot myself.

And it will all be over

I'll return to my home

--the world below--

And shall forever remain

for the sin I have done.

Suicide

--a good way out.

The way that sends you straight to hell.

But what do I care?

I was going there…

Wasn't I?

With my demented thoughts

I would have been there.

My heart is still broken…

and now forever it will be.

I shall suffer for eternity

In the depths of hell,

.without my love.

Once again I'm lost…

with nowhere to go…

and no way to get out..

.I'm trapped.

 

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.Shadowed Figure.

Walks alone in the shadows of the night.

The crescent moon lighting his path…

The darkened clouds soon roll over.

His path covered,

the ground begins to shake.

.as he falls.

..deeper and deeper..

Into the underworld.

Met by the devil himself

upon his arrival,

the ember flames burning him--

wishing to spend eternity in the depths of hell.

To be protected by the shadow walkers,

and loved by none

--but hated by many.

You become engulfed in flames,

sweat dripping down your face…

You look down and see your hands

melting in the scorching heat.

You become scared.

--and do not wish this life.

But is that your final answer?

It's too early to tell.

You begin to scream.

Then you wake up--

and look around…

Surrounded by crimson walls

the smell of blood in the air…

Death surrounding you.

Screams heard from every direction,

you are in hell now.

Was before a dream?

--or was it the shadowed figures

messing with your mind…

.Dreaming of hell?.

 

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.Cursed.

I believe thats what I am

with a family that is not one at all

a mother who is a angel

a father who is a demon

a brother who is from hell

but what am I?

I can not figure it out

Maybe Im just normal

and ment to be nowhere

or maybe I was ment to never excist

to save my mothers voice

and my fathers burning flames

my brother who always tells me

about the 'wonderful' world below

and telling me I should join him

but is that who I am?

A wanderer of the underworld?

I do not know

But first I would have to die

My mother killed by my father

a bullet in her head

I witnessed her death

she feel dead on me

the blood ozing all over

My father

Killed by the devil

he was not 'evil' enough

for my mother had changed him

to prove his evilness he was made to kill my mom

but that wasnt enough

the devil made him kill my brother to

so then he was in hell

but he wasnt quite dead yet

so the devil finished the job

aint he just so kind

So now theres me

here all alone

everyone dead

My soul has died

but I just wont

I cant die

but why?

Maybe I can finish myself off

with that knife over there

the cold steel blade aginst my neck

one move and I'd be dead

bleeding to death

is that my wish?

Yes it is

then I will not be alone

I will be with the demons that live in the underworld

Whoops there goes the knife

Now I know I was cursed

.What Fun.

 

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.Lair.

You can not keep secrets

arnt you such a great friend

in hell you belong

in the burning flames you will end

so leave my life

you are unwanted now

you broke a promise

and told

my deepest secrets

my deepest fear

a friend I thought I could trust

that turns in the end.

Why have you done this?

You know deserve death

and death I shall bring you

Death of the mind, body, and soul

With this blade

my problems shall be solved

for you will be out of my life

and my secrets safe once more

with this blade

your soul will parish

with this blade

your mind will die

now with this blade

I cut into you

a star

a star with a circle

to protect you from doing harm

to me and others

Im binding you from hurting us

Im binding you from your cruel intentions

Now that you are through

with this blade

I slit your neck

and now you are gone

forever

forgood

.Good Bye.

 

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.Heaven.

Is it real?

Is god really there?

but if heaven is real...

wouldnt hell be also?

But which would be better?

Heaven or Hell

Heaven for the good

and those who do not hurt themselves or others

hell for the bad

the rulebreakers

the hurters

If god is so great

why doesnt he stop us?

To keep us going to hell?

Why cant he use his magic powers to save us all

from the firey depths below

I know

because he is non exsisence

So hear me now

heaven and hell

Which to chose?

Hell

for heaven is not real

it is not possiable

no one is perfect so how could anyone be in?

But hell you see is for those who have sinned

those who have commited a crime

big or small

it doesnt matter

for hell is where you'd end up

so cant you see?

no matter how hard you try

hell is where you'll be

and heaven ruined

by the people of hell

and hell will take over

engulfing the world in flames

so as far as we know

we could be in heaven right now

it is not burning

so its clearly not hell

but it is also not on clouds

so maybe its midway

Maybe its helven

A place where heaven and hell do not exsist

a place for all to be free

for now

.Enjoy it while it lasts.

 

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.Imprisonment.

Im locked away

in a four sided room

the walls of cold stone

holding me in

one wall made of bars

that hold me in

Why am I here?

What have I done?

When did I commit a crime?

Never

Then why am I here?

I was framed

Top suspect for recent killing

Dark brown eyes, brown hair, 5ft 10inch

is the description I fit

How do I escape?

The others that want me

that I do not with to be with

Help me

I cannot get out

you must make them see

That it was a set up

to get me put away

so they could be free

I should not be here

dont you believe me?

Oh lord please help

wait

if I have sinned then hell I must pray to

Please end my life

let me die

I do not wish to live in this four sided cube

Nothing to kill myself with but fear itself

I must escape

If I do not make it

I will die trying

Out into the prison yard I go

Towards the fence

Bang!

I feel something biting my leg

I feel liquid escaping

painting the fence

that I longed to get over

Bang!

Another bite but this in the back

The pain is to much

I fall to the ground

motionless

Footsteps heard coming my way

as once again I hear that horriable sound

Bang!

And now I was gone

my last breath hearing my sucide

my soul sent down to hell

Oh how nice

Im not trapped anymore

The smell of death surrounding me

as the flames shot up all around

I am free atleast

free to roam the underworld

also known as hell

.I am free Are you?.

 

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.Unwanted.

Not wanted for a crime you commited

are you alone?

Are you not wanted by your family?

Is your life a living hell

because you have no friends?

That sucks for you then doesnt it

Knowing that no one wants you in this world

that you have no purpose of living

But you could always make a purpose

be a proud loner

do something no one has before

Then kill yourself

and you will be known world wide

Doesnt that sound like fun!

But your sucide must be good

no guns, knifes, or pills

Use a rope

hang it from the ceiling

then burn yourself with fire

then to get rid of the pain

hang yourself

but first call a friend

and tell him to come by

then your death will be found

and you will be known nationwide

Aint that great?

then you wont be unwanted

people will morn your death

and wish they tried to help

but its tolate

they didnt

and now they feel wrong

and you are now wanted

in the depths of hell is where you now rest

wishing you had done something else

But theres no going back now

you cannot change the past

sorry

just got to find a way

to be wanted

.In Hell.

 

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.Hating You.

My hatred for you grows everyday

everytime I see you I wanna hurl

Im growing sick

mentally and emotionally

only because I know you are in this world

Leave me be

so I can be free of your harmful ways

DIE

DIE

DIE

Then I'll be sane once more

if you where gone from the world

everything for me would change

get hit by a car

stabbed by a gangster

shot by a robber

it makes no difference

you'd be dead anyway

and gone from my life

maybe I was ment to do it

maybe my purpose in life

is to bring you down

so now I know my purpose

and what I must do

I'll forever burn in the fires of hell

but that doesnt matter

you'll be gone

and that's all that does

with this blade I slit your throat

with this blade I'm killing you

with this blade I have brought you down

.Good Bye.

 

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.In this world.

which I hate so much

I see me dead

with a smile on my face

If I were to die

would I be happy for once?

Would I like the world below?

Or would it hurt me more

I can not answer this question

unless I dare to take the risk

but once Im gone

theres no turning back

So do I wish a life in hell?

Or do I wish to suffer

just to be in heaven

What a hard question

deciding the fate of my soul

I believe Id rather live with the devil

A life in hell is what I want

For Im to good for heaven

And to bad for helven

With the devil I shall live

"Oh devil, M'love, Its so nice being queen of the underworld"

is what I world say

Now hell is my home

And Im hear to stay

no thoughts of going back

no cares of the ones I left

Now leave me alone

.Or be sent to Helven.

 

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.These Tears.

Of mine are from my saddened self

My broken heart sewed back together

Bits and peices of my shattered mind returning

My tears of joy dribbling down my pale cheaks

My sanity has returned?

what a great day this is

Or has my heart come back?

but my sanity still missing

Release the hounds

my sanity is on the lose!

We must catch it

so I can leave this padded room

and be out in the great big world

With my love

My heart's keeper

For he will forever hold my heart

Broken it shall never be

Have the damn hounds found it yet?

Without my sanity

I'll have to leave once more

To the firey below

The crimson flames licking my body

as I walk through the shadowed land

A burning scensation filling my heart

Knowing Id be back once more

But when would I see him again?

But when?

Would he still be there

waiting

Like how Iv waited for him

Or will he be disloyal

and leave me

because im incurable

with this evil desiese

Oh how i wish

to return once more

But I believe Imtrapped

I see no open doors

To leave the underworld

I must stay forever now

Oh Joy!

My hearts shattered again

The peices no where to be found

For I have lost my love once more

and this time

.Its Forever.

 

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.Why.

Must I feel this way

When I see you at my side?

Knowing you do not love me

when you tell me so

But can you tell me one thing

truthfully

why did you lie?

I could have handled the truth.

I can see why I'm not loved

But for you to lie

You have made yourself unloved.

My once put together heart

broken once more

as I listen to your lying words

replying in my mind.

I love you

are the words I hear

even though I know they are not real

I can always dream cant I?

To hear those sweet words

from the one that I love so much

to know that I am loved back

but then to find out

it was never true

Never ment to be

But why?

Because of the bitch that stands in my way

to your heart

that you believe you like

because BAM

and she hit you with her ugliness

that attricted you to like her

How sad I feel for you

because you date the devil's main hoe.

You do not pay for her

but she only gives you pleasure

your personal free whore

you must be loving it

But what I can offer is so much more

A loving heart

and a caring mind

For I am not a free whore

and I will actually care

if you are to hurt yourself

you are to be hurting me

But to hurt me

you said you shall not

So dont break your promise once more

And hurt yourself

to escape your free hoe

your present from the underworld

Just break away from the firey depths

and Return to the one that you love

I may not be that one

but I shall always dream I am

My love will always remain

but Im not sure how much Longer I will

My broken heart

eating away at my soul

bringing me closer and closer to the edge

the edge of death

that I currently wish

because You have broken your promise

So please will you love me

It is my only wish

to be loved by the one that I love

and to be hated by those I hate

Star bight Star light

Please grant me this wish tonight

to win my loves heart

to have my heart glued back together

and my soul slowly healing

Star bight Star light

please grant me this wish tonight

To see my love away from the whore

that claims her love for him

but will never love him like I

For my love is true

My love is real

So let your love escape

and break free from its chains

to come to the wisher of it

Which would be me

So we can be together

and we can love one another

and our lives would be forever

.Happily Ever After.

 

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.Shadows of hell.

Do you see the shadows at night

calling you

to come forth to the underworld

calling you

to bring you to live with the devil

the shadows of the night

the messangers of hell

they lurk from hell to helven

and sometimes to even heaven

but they always end up where they first begin

do you know where that is?

Its the world below

that we all dread

that we will end up in the end

but dont be scared

the shadows are our friends

just follow them

and they will take you

from end to end of the firey world

to explore and learn about your new home

Your new life in the place below

h.e approches you

e.scape while you can

l.ive as long as possiable

l.ast in helven, end up in heaven

for heaven is better then hell

atleast thats what some believe

although I believe different

Following the black creatures of the night

the stealers of the light

bringing you below

meeting your new faith

but what have you done

to deserve such a thing?

Have you sinned

your such a disgrace

Your not sorry for your crime

so dont try and plead innocent

for we all know you are guilty

theres no escaping

once they have caught you

there is no getting away

once they have brough you down

.Down to the fires below.

 

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.Shattered.

My dreams broken

My heart in peices

But one place is left from crumbling

One place still stands

My broken heart never to be fixed

My dreams never to be acieved

A shattered dream is what I now have

A broken heart is what it gave me

This once place

No better then the place below

But better then the one above

But wait?

Heaven has been dystoryed too

What a joyous world

Of hell

Only one place remains.

In the firey depths below it brings itself up

To never leave you waiting

for the beauty or disgust you requested

A photo of the firey underworld

A dream of the clouded above

But only one remains

.Shattered.

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.Freed.

Im away once more

To live by myself again

Until the one worthy comes forth

and tries to claim me as his own

But didnt you know its impossiable to own what isnt a item?

I am impossiable to own

I can be liked

But I cannot like

I can be loved

But love can never escape me

So do you dare

Mess with my locked away mind

Try and unscramble my thoughts

and here the inside voice

But that is not for you

No, it is not

So do not take me

For I am not to be taken

Do not wish for me

For I am not a star

And do not love me

For loving me will hurt you more then no love at all.

.Love isnt real, so dont pretend.

 

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.Hide.

But you cannot

I am everywhere

In your dreams

And in your thoughts

Hidding is not an option

For it only makes it worse

The longer you make me wait

The longer I'll make you suffer

So try to save yourself

And do not make me mad

My bad side is a side not to be seen

For you have only seen my good

So do not cross that bloody line

Do not make me go over the edge

.If you do, I will kill you.

 

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.Heaven on Earth.

Looking into your eyes

Makes me dream of a place

A place far from here

A place of eternal happiness and love

In this place, that is known as heaven

I see myself

With a smile

Because I'v been chosen to live among the great.

But for every good there is a bad

This bad is far worse then you could ever imagine

Hell

Where the fires burn

and where all evil lives

The shadows that escape drag more down

To live there for eternity

Instead of enjoying the great life above

Some can escape

the cold hands of the black demons

There gardian angel rescues them

For me I have escaped

You are my gardian angel

and you have rescued me

The light that you hold

brightens my life

bringing the happiness that was once only held in heaven

down to earth

So now I can live a life of happiness

and once I'v shut my eyes for the last time

My joy will follow me to a new land

Where I can live among the angels

and be with the angel of my heart

If you do not save me from the firey below

then my dreams will never become alive

they will be shattered the moment I die

.Rescue Me.

[Degenero Angelus]

I honestly am speechless. Until now I've never seen anyone who had any more raw free verse talent then I. Absolutely amazing.

Degenero, the 'one and only'

 

"The death of one is a tragedy, the death of millions is just a statistic." - Joseph Stalin, 1946

[reverie]

bravo... u have a lot talent little one... ever heard of a slam poet? think you have the potenial to be one... look them up...

 

Also like how your poems seem to flow into one another... nice progession... keep it up

 

revery

the dreamlost

"oh sweet bird of repose" (sky heros)

the dream continues

[Guest amcstarry]

thank you very much, I will look into that but I'm probably not old enough. I'm only 14 er, and Iv written all those poems in the past like two months or so? I just started getting into poetry because I rp horses, and I rp a very evil mare named Solitary Confinement so I wanted to write a poem for her and thats how it all started. I learned I have a very violent mind and it became fun, although my mom is completly aginst it, she doesnt even know I still write poems, after she read my first one for the horse she told me I'm not allowed to write anymore, but oh well to late now eh?

[Gwaihir]

awesome poems!

[Guest Mister Burrofoot]

Very Nice job.. I unfortunatly cannot view the pciture , but if it is as beautifull as your words, and you are but 14, you life in poetry has just started as you dabble in it.. May you write nothing but better and better poetry each time the pen meets the paper..

 

-The Kender