Heart Attack

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Going back to before

Again

How did this all start?

Mind spinning, writhing in pain,

trying to find a solid place to stand

I see a steering wheel in my hands, and

 

No--I don't want to, don't make me see this again.

 

Car running, headlights searing the night,

but not quite far enough

not clear enough

to see the childish figure, walking in the road

 

NO! take me back. I'd rather be insane.

The reel still running in my brain

unrelentlessly...

 

a soft, unbearable thudding sound.

 

the screech of brakes as, finally, my foot obeys my eyes

 

and I'm running

running

running...

my mind still can't wrap itself around that fact that she's fine

barely bruised, still herself enough to use her bump for treats

While I'm too shaken to eat.

God, why do you scare me this way?

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Heart attack # 2Another silent momentAnother sudden recognitionAnother yawning fearWhere is the small hand that was in mine,just a second ago?I turn to look,nope, no tousled head in viewbut then a terrible, tumbling soundand a scream from the staircase.and I'm off again,heart racing, clenching, thundering as I snatch her upAnother trip to the ERAnother goose-egg on her precious headAnother black eye,how much more? Please stop,My wild, wild darling--won't you?I don't know if my heart can take much more strain.

Edited June 25, 2013 by Harmony

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^{These were based on events I experienced with my daughter...yes, she is totally fine, not hurt at all, & really I am the only one who remembers! Kids...}