Curious Mylo Posted June 7, 2005 Report Posted June 7, 2005 (edited) It's been revised a bit since I first put it on here. ,.-+'+-.,.-+'+-.,.-+'+-., In the last few years of my life, I’ve changed in more ways than I can even say. Even since last year, I’m different. The biggest changes I can think of are: 1. I started High School and 2. (pause) I met you. You opened my eyes to a whole new part of the world. I could see that people lived differently than I had ever known. I could see that I didn’t have to be perfect. There was a different side of the world I had never seen before. Notice, I said different. Different isn’t always good. You showed me so many new things that I was surrounded by the fantasy. I got all wrapped up in the lies, because I liked them more than reality, and I couldn’t see what was coming. (pause) You showed me a whole new kind of pain. I knew this pain existed, but I never knew how horrible or how deep the pain went. I didn’t know that it would haunt you for the rest of your life. Now… (looks down) … thanks to you… I can honestly and whole heartedly say… (looks back up) I know this pain first hand. (pause) I've been dancing with it for a while now. And I've learned its dance very well. At first all I could do was follow its lead. And it lead wherever it wanted, as fast, or as slow, as it wanted and all I could do was follow. But I learned its dance, and I've learned how to lead. Once I lead it to it’s seat, I can dance with someone new. In the last few years I’ve visited your part of the world, I’ve ice skated with freedom, I’ve ran face first into reality, and danced with your haunting figure. Yet even though it was painful and I could have avoided it, it was worth it. If there was one moment in my life I would relive, it would be when I chose sprite over dr. pepper last night. Anything more important would rewrite my whole life story. What you did hurt, but I love where I am in life. I’ve learned a lot. I know how strong I am. In a sense, I owe you something. I owe you (pause) a thank you. Thank you for allowing me to visit your world. Thank you for teaching me to ice skate with freedom. And thank you for haunting me. Day and night. Without you I wouldn’t have a chance to be here, I wouldn’t have the friends I do, and (pause) I wouldn’t be me. Edited June 8, 2005 by Broken_Inside
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