Declaration of Neutrality

[Guest ntraveler2]

I doubt if many remember me. Probably not. If anyone cares to comment, do so. I'll welcome abuse, scoldings, comments, etc. Pretty much anything except viruses. Please, no viruses or trojans. It was I who pissed you off, not my poor computer.

 

This is the old going-away message.

 

On a private message I've received.

 

You, on the other hand, are a proven problem for several people.

 

I'm sorry it's come to this point, but we absolutely have to do something here. Letting bitterness in anyone sit untouched only lets it grow, and fester. That *only* hurts. I don't want that happening to you or anyone else here.

 

You have seven days from this message's time stamp to reply.

I see the administration is resorting to force. If a pathetic display of authority with all the intelligence of a vengeful prepubescent is what you feel to be the best judgement, then go ahead and ban me by all means.

 

I won't be back. You'll just be rid of another person whose face you can easily melt into the virtual walls of the Internet.

 

*EDIT: All other posts I have ever made here that could be deleted have been disposed of. All that couldn't be, I request that they be deleted. In the future, in no way will I ever permit http://www.themightypen.net/ to host or use any of my fiction writing, should I be so arrogant to think that anyone would want the trash I write. Thanks.

I now declare that I view the Pen as neutral instead of hostile.

 

The entire thing about me not letting the Pen use any of my writing can be forgotten. I null and void the last paragraph of my going-away post, from "All other postsI have ever" to "that anyone would want the trash I write. Thanks". Forget about it. Not that it'd change much, but it's a symbolic gesture, I suppose.

 

The long stretch of time was more than enough for me to cool down. Many things have changed. I have entered a good college. I have become old enough to legally drink, so no longer a teenager. I feel this in my bones, mind, and heart.

(That feeling of genuine "wow, I'm getting old. I'm not blowing up every half second any longer.")

 

I have also been diagnosed with brain cancer and liver cancer, and scans show suspicious spots on my lungs, so that'll probably add lung cancer to the list. Mentally preparing oneself for death isn't that hard; it only takes twenty minutes of contemplation. In that process, I've noticed the rather obvious fact that one can't afford to be too much of an asshat. Oh, and the brain cancer has been successfully defenestrated, so to speak. Gone. So two creepies to worry about, unless another organ turns into a creepie.

(I like that word. Asshat. That'd make an interesting smiley.)

 

Er, yes. Forgive me if you will, abuse me if you will, ignore me if you will, steal my teddy bear if you will. I will welcome it all. Actually, I kind of like the teddy bear, so please don't do anything to it.

 

I'm just posting this to notify people that I'm not hostile any longer, and that I am looking at the Pen website again.

[Gwaihir]

Good to see you back. Enjoy your time here.

[Guest ntraveler2]

My thanks to Gwaihir.

 

I ask all the members of the Pen who remember the incident this simple, very thorny question.

 

Is my return still an option? Speak frankly, if you will.

[Gwaihir]

As long as you're willing to be friendly and polite we'll forget the rest.

[Wyvern]

Ntraveler2 smiles warmly as Gwaihir's words echo through his soul, not immediately noticing the sounds of the blaring trumpets as the Cabaret Room doors swing open in a blast of noise. Wyvern storms into the room in a flurry of poorly-placed special effects and confetti rainbows, skipping along happily as the seven Elder Dwarves follow behind him in a copper-spangled marching band. The tune they play is an upbeat and optimistic number, rendered ever-so-slightly off-beat due to the uses of Almost Dragonic Brand Music Sheets™. Wyvern rolls his arms as he marches in through miniature firework displays, letting out a gleeful shout of some sort before breaking into a slide and landing on his knees next to ntraveler2. Several photographers begin taking snaps as the lizard raises himself from the ground, winking to the newly-arrived pennite and placing a scaly arm around his shoulder in a friendly manner.

 

"Indeed" hisses Wyvern, his voice lost to the shouts of several excited reporters and the blaring sounds of the band. The reptilian clears his throat, speaking louder. "INDEED, today is a most joyous occasion. In fact, it's time to pop the bubbly!"

 

Wyvern pats ntraveler2 playfully on the shoulder and grins, taking out an open bottle of champaign and downing what little remains of its contents. Once he's finished with this, the lizard tosses the bottle to the side and takes out a bubble wand, blowing a large bubble with it and popping it with one of his claws. A large cheer breaks loose from the crowds.

 

"Yessss." Wyvern raises a scaly fist in the air, then tosses the bubble wand upward in an enormous flurry of bubbles and an uproar of cheering. "Today is a very special day, for today ntraveler2 has returned to the Pen. You may remember him from such lively events as 'The Necromancer's Solutions Stall!'"

 

The crowd goes wild, causing Wyverns voice to become drowned out again and causing ntraveler2 to glance about wildly.

 

"C-calm down, please." Wyvern sidesteps as a bee-shaped firework buzzes past him, crashing into the wall behind him and bursting into flames. "N-NTRAVELER2! Yes, ladiessss and gentlemen, ntraveler2 back here at the Pen. And that's not all, he's declared Neutrality... meaning he no longer hates us!"

 

An enormous applause fills the room with much cheering and bubble popping, along with a few back-flipping mimes practicing acrobatics. Wyvern turns to ntraveler2 and smiles broadly as the cheers die down, clasping him on the shoulder and exclaiming:

 

"And ntraveler2, I think you'll find that the Pen has greatly improved in your absence. Indeed, our "vengeful prepubescent" manner of thinking has simmered to a quaint vengeful pubescent manner of thinking. In fact..." The overgrown lizard pats him twice on the back, grinning as he waves a claw in the air. "I'm certain that, with some hard work and effort on our behalf, we can change that 'Neutral' view to a 'Semi-Acceptant' approach in no time! Isn't that right, guys?!"

 

An enormous round of cheers roars throughout the room as the Elder Dwarf band cues up into a loud array of cymbal crashes and trumpet blurts, ending as Wyvern raises his claws to imply silence.

 

"The celebration will take place shortly, of course, and will perhaps be held at Zariah's wonderful Valentine's Ball- that is, if she approves of the notion. First, however, I would like to present a gift to our newly arrived pennite, simply to show our gratitude to his declaration of Neutrality. Ntraveler2... I give you, the Mighty Pen Statue of Overwhelming Gratitude! Let it down, boys!"

 

Wyvern snaps a scaly finger and grins as a large iron statue of a pointed Quill is slowly let down from the ceiling, evoking a wave of "Ooos" and "Aaaahs" from the audience. The overgrown lizard cringes, however, when the cords holding the statue up snap due to their Almost Dragonic fabrication, causing the Quill to plummet towards the ground. The crowds cry out as the point of the Quill impales ntraveler2's teddy bear, driving the poor bear into the ground in a cloud of fluff. Wyvern clasps a claw over his mouth and winces at the disaster, then turns to ntraveler2 and gradually mutters:

 

"I'm, uhhh... I'm sure it's sewable. N-not sueable, mind you... s-sewable."

 

;-)

 

OOC: Welcome back, ntraveler2.

[Mynx]

*Mynx bows her feline head in formal greeting*

I did not know you while you were first here, so of the previous incident I only know of your leaving and not much else.

Let bygones be just that, welcome back to the Pen.

*smiles softly*

In RL I have witnessed family members die from cancer of the brain but have seen family members survive cancer that has plagued nearly the entire body. You always have a chance, just be strong and don't give up the fight.

Those who accept death are the ones that wind up taken.

Best wishes for this time, friend.

And welcome back to the Mighty Pen

[Guest ntraveler2]

Ah. Already three people are willing to forget the incident from before. Many thanks to those three. I suspect some of those who stay silent are still angry, and probably for good reason. I was, like mentioned above by me, an asshat.

 

To atone, I will abandon the rank of 'page' I've gained here, and completely start anew with a new screenname. This will possibly aid in at least helping people forget. This will, at the very least, be a welcome change.

 

Ah, and worry not about the teddy bear.

[Shathward]

Well, here I am.

 

Further posting will be postponed until after Wednesday ..

[Peredhil]

you're welcome back, of course, under any name you choose, as your leaving was of your choice.

About the only things that are considered punitive offenses here at the Pen are plagarism and refusing to treat others at the Pen with the respect all human beings deserve.

The Pen is a refuge and home away from all the ugliness of the world we all know too well. It's a place of acceptance of others while disagreeing with opinions, of personal and social growth, and always always always of tolerance. Separating people from their actions, words, and opinions, cherishing the person while disagreeing with their thoughts, that's the ticket!

All that implies a policy of forgiveness - holding grudges on past behavior when someone wants to change is chaining them to their past, and refusing to let them grow. Somewhat like stuffing a butterfly back into the cocoon and saying, "I don't care what you say, I *know* how you are. many legged and leaf eating - you can't fool me!"

 

Anyone who has learned from their choices of the past, so that they will not repeat them, is always welcome back. Are you certain you don't want to remain a Page? You earned it. A name change is easy, we've done those before. Your name should reflect who you feel you wish to be here.

 

Welcome back.

 

Pendantic Peredhil

[Tanuchan]

Ntraveler2, or Shathward if you prefer... We haven't had chance to know each other, as I was a very silent person while you were around. As Mynx, I remember your leaving post... and if you're willing to come back, and be again part of our community, you're certainly welcome. Whatever breach caused your leaving should be seen as something from which to learn, and use as the foundation for something better and, why not, stronger... my point of view, at least. (I talk for myself and as an outsider, not knowing the details at all.)

 

For my part, I enjoyed your RP posts at the Conservatory, for I've read some of the old threads before you left. I hope to see you around and maybe know you better.

 

Be strong, and be welcome. As you sig says... the apprecitation of small things is important.

 

~Tanny

Edited February 28, 2005 by Tanuchan

[Loki Wyrd]

Welcome back.

[Venefyxatu]

Venefyxatu cringes as he sees the huge quill crash to the floor, but nevertheless makes his way through the dust and rubble towards ntraveler.

 

I was no member of the Pen at the time of the incident you refer to, and as such know nothing about it. I'll keep it that way as well, leave the past behind you and all that.

I do remember your name from the AM Conservatory, and recall reading some very enjoyable RP posts. It is good to see you again.

[Shathward]

*despite vows not to post due to approaching midterm, ends up posting* Pfft.

 

Well, I appreciate all the good wishes and welcomes.

 

As for the rank of Page, it is something I must give up. I have effectively nullified everything I've done to get the rank of Page, and I must atone by starting over from 'guest'.

 

Now. I really ... must ... study ...

[reverie]

hmm, i must have been idle during the incident or whatever happened... I don't recall it at all... oh well, welcome back.

 

 

rev...

[Kasmandre]

Welcome, Shathward, good to have you.

[Ozymandias]

Good to see you again, Shathward. I hope things continue to get better...