purple_shadows Posted November 22, 2004 Report Posted November 22, 2004 So my mom is finally starting to accept that I'm going to art school. she called my advisor and after talking to her is now bragging to all of her friends how I'm going to go far, and my art advisor introduces me to her colleges as her most brilliant student, and telling me that colleges will be compeating for me, not the other way around, I can get into anywhere I want, blah, blah, blah. And while this may sound like bragging, it's not. I feel oddly out of place and compleately overwhelmed, considering that 6months ago I didn't think i had any chance of getting into art school and had settled for an English major or summat. Even my art teacher at the highschool seems sceptical when I talk to her about it. I'm just waiting for someone to point the finger and name me for the fake I am. But it's not happening, and I'm still trying to get settled in my skin. It's been a very surreal experience for me, and well, this came out of it. Enjoy. Modesty I wonder if I can live up to What you’ve predicted for me Sometimes I wish that I never Learned what it means to be the best I don’t feel it I’m just doing what I love No more no less And it seems for once that’s enough The pressure to perform begins to take over I think you overestimate me And now I struggle To maintain your standards I feel like a fake Modesty is one thing But this is another When will my confidence Match what you see in me?
Mynx Posted November 22, 2004 Report Posted November 22, 2004 Wow... That is really beautiful. And I can relate. Trust me. I have many people in my life who peg me to be so much better than I believe. Your words have so totally framed my feelings on the same topic. Thank you. Beautifully written.
Salinye Posted November 24, 2004 Report Posted November 24, 2004 First of all, Congratulations on having your passion bring you success! Not many people can say that! Also, I know how when doing what you love is turned into a "job" or has a "due date" or "unwanted pressures" it can cause burn out. I hope that you'll find the balance you're looking for and not hit burn out mode. :0) Also, a well written poem that I feel expresses your feelings very well. I particularly like this part: Sometimes I wish that I never Learned what it means to be the best I don’t feel it I’m just doing what I love No more no less I've felt that before. Thanks for sharing with us! ~Salinye
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