Help Needed

[Shadow of the Butterfly]

This poem is about post-partum depression. I, unfortunately, am going through this right now. I'm getting help though, so I suppose you could say life is getting better.

 

Lost in thoughts

--not my own--

I sit and ponder

Afraid and alone

 

Am I worthy--

Of such a treat?

A baby so good--

A baby so sweet?

 

Suicide is selfish

Suicide is weak

Suicide is thought of

Thoughts I cannot speak

 

Homicide is even worse

So ashamed, I cannot breathe

Horrible mother I must be

I think I must leave

 

A therapist to talk to

A friend to help me out

Some drugs to calm my hormones

I've chosen a safer route

Babies are a blessing

Of that, please have no doubt

Don't be ashamed to get help

When thoughts scream and shout

 

Babies are a blessing

Remember, this is true,

But please remember,

Moms are blessings, too

Edited November 3, 2004 by Shadow of the Butterfly

[reverie]

~hope you feel better sooner better than later

 

..um, but I liked your poem. I can feel the raw emotion of it... It's a real experience/feeling brought to life in words... which always better than a conceptionlized or imagined one...

 

cool.

 

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