Beautiful Nightmare Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 If i was dead would anyone care? If i was dead, would anyone be lost in dispear? I feel so useless I want to end this. is this how life should be? Pain and sadness deep in me. If i was dead would anyone cry? Would anyone be there to say their goodbye? Life is not for me But the people around me do not see That life is not ment for everybody Some would rather be dead-like me. I wonder why i want to die so badly I was brought up hating everything about me When i was eleven i first wanted to die I used to sit in my room and just cry. Cutting myself didnt help the pain I just went deeper into depression and shame. I was ashamed of who i am Upset cos no-one gave a damn I hated myself inside and out Driving me insane, at myself i used to shout: "Why cant i be pretty? Why do i feel this way?" I still hate myself a little more each day.
Ayshela Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 *hugs* there are those who would care there are those who would miss you however much it feels that there aren't
Peredhil Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 Ummm. I think you're pretty. I think you're pretty smart, pretty in looks, and pretty special to me. I'd care.
WrenWind Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 (edited) This is very good and i can sympathize with the feelings that it protrays. it makes me think of a poem i wrote a while ago check here *hugs* Edited November 15, 2003 by WrenWind
Merelas Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 This is excessively sad... I know that people would miss you, and especially many here at the pen, if not in reall ife, as well. Hang in there.
X-Sabre Posted November 15, 2003 Report Posted November 15, 2003 Yeah Arwen.. I'd miss you for one. And I can totally understand how you feel. I know I wrote a poem just like this a while back, but I know I had it deleted.. Heh.. Cheer up hon, we all love ya
reverie Posted November 16, 2003 Report Posted November 16, 2003 (edited) ...i can relate been there... great poem though... you expressed your misery beautifully... At least you have an outlet... and look at all the lovely people that care revery the dreamlost "don't be sad, be the other way(tiny toons)" the dream continues... Edited November 16, 2003 by reverie
Regel Posted November 16, 2003 Report Posted November 16, 2003 The only person here that can answer these questions Arwen is you. Funny thing is there was a time in my life that I felt hated and despised. I hated my life and it sucked all the joy out of my life. I had no confidence in myself and worse I began to hate the image that so many around me despised. My life was a spiral, a sink hole where hope went to die. Although I will admit that while my problems were mostly external they manifested themselves inside my head and haunted my dreams at night. I have to tell you that indeed you would be missed by more than the few people that you can imagine. You life has hardly begun and should you decide to take your life back here is the first person you must befriend. "Arwen meet Arwen." I know this has become unfashionable but I will pray for you. I hope that you live a long life with happiness in such quantity that it washes the painful memories away.
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