DarkPainInside Posted November 5, 2003 Report Posted November 5, 2003 Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does I figured out, Why I hate it at school. I don’t fit in, Im not cool. Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does While everyone else is wearing blue, im wearing black, and I cant see past you. I need my sanity back. And carly that’s your fault. Don’t ask me why; It’s the way you made me feel, For every night I cried. Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does They’re wearing lipgloss, im wearing spikes I couldn’t give a toss. Coz they all think I m a dyke. So I hide away, Living miserably, My choice, ok? Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does. Don’t make me end it! Don’t make me snap! It is my choice To make my life crap. This is the way I cope Being so angry and sad Other wise I’d be living without hope Suicidally mad Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does. School sucks the life out of me Pulls me towards conformity Its easier to give in And become so pretty and slim But they can stick it! Coz I like it like this! Anger sadness rage and pain Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does…..
Appy Posted November 5, 2003 Report Posted November 5, 2003 (edited) Was ik maar een gezond meisje Was ik maar een goede leerling Was ik maar een toffe vriendin Was ik maar een apart figuur Was ik maar geliefd bij iedereen die ik mag Was ik maar... Was ik maar mezelf Maar tussen deze mensen ben ik niet Translation: If only I was a healthy girl If only I was a good student If only I was a cool friend If only I was a strange dudette If only I was loved by everyone that I like If only I was... If only I was myself But I am not among these people I wrote this when I was 18 and STILL in school.. it was what I had felt all through my school time and still now sometimes feel.. So I kinda know why you wrote this. Wish I had the determination you seem to have when I needed it most, for me it came rather late *sad smile* I liked how you put it into words, especially the repetition of; Tell myself it doesn’t matter But deep down I know it does Works wonders for the whole thing that. A job well done On the subject itself.. learn to see the truth, not what others and yourself would "like" to see... I can't do it. But i'm getting closer every day. For example I found out that I AM a strange dudette as mentioned above, but by my own definition. Afterall I'm the one who got up and left to live in Germany for love.... all my other friends did the obvious and studied their uhm..... well studied very hard Learn to see and live is what you make of it *hugs* Edited November 5, 2003 by Appy
Guest Morbid Angel Posted November 8, 2003 Report Posted November 8, 2003 i hear what you are saying, but i also think that what carly did, DID make you sad, angry and upset, it's not what happens that makes you react the way u do, it's how U think of it and view it. u interpret it and that's what makes u feel the way u do. nonetheless, i liked this poem. it had a kool flow and rhyme to it. nice job! Morbid Angel
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