Trust

[Appy]

~edited because of a stray 'l' in the word 'truthful'~
~edited again because the centering works now, thanks Rune!~

Trust

"It is close to having faith.."

To depend, nay
to utterly depend
on being truthful

To rely, nay
to utterly rely
on being cared for

To confide, nay
to utterly confide
in secrets kept sealed

*
*
My faith was crushed
long ago
before being aware
of such thoughts
*
*

Therefor I am incompatible with this

Trust

Even myself, I cannot
grant the privilege
of certitude

Not after adapting
after compromising
every inch of my life

Again that question:

"Who am I?"

I do not know,
and I do not trust
anyone to answer it
least of all me..

[01 oktober 2003, Leverkusen]

Edited October 20, 2014 by Appy

[Peredhil]

Wow...

 

Very good read! The formatting does lend impact.

[Ayshela]

yyeeeeesssss.......

 

*looks again*

*loses all other words*

 

*hugs* you

[Appy]

*blush*

thank you..

*hugs back*

[Loki Wyrd]

An interesting read.

 

Oh, and some nitpicking on my part...

truthfull...should it not be truthful?

therefor is a word, but I've always been used to the therefore spelling myself, but I guess to each their own...

[Appy]

Thanks for your comment, Loki

 

Heh and thank you for nit-picking too, it is indeed "truthful" (I still don't get when it's one l and when 2... someone able to explain maybe?)

 

 

About 'therefor' or 'therefore', I checked merriam-webster on those and these are the definitions:

 

Therefor

: for or in return for that <ordered a change and gave his reasons therefor>

 

Therefore

1 a : for that reason : CONSEQUENTLY b : because of that c : on that ground

2 : to that end

 

I'm therefore () keeping my 'therefor' since I think it is sufficient and I believe that this part of the definition; in return for that, fits perfectly into the poem.. better then the definition of 'therefore' in my mind

 

babble babble *giggle*... thanks again loki, I've learned something new now. There's definitly the possibility that a different way of spelling has big influence on meaning, I'm going to have to keep that in mind

 

EDIT: *sigh* offcourse even I see that both definitions are the same in that their meanings are the same.. I still like the Idea that "my" 'therefor' means; in return for that... just a little thing I saw after I re-read my post. Appy out.

Edited October 4, 2003 by Appy

[Ayshela]

but true nonetheless that subtleties in spelling can greatly change the meaning. that the change in this case is shadowy is immaterial, the insight gained is well worthwhile.

*hugs*

[_Zen_]

well... after drawing that in, where to begin to respond. i think its the best poem i have read by you appy. the repetition works nicely, and although formatting is a small thing, it is effective. only one question. when are we gonna get some happier topics!!!!!?!?!

 

hehe, good work appy.

[Loki Wyrd]

Your therefor works just fine.

[Parmenion]

Grand read Appy - great layout. Regarding when 2 "l"'s are used and when one "l" is used I haven't figured that one out either so look forward to an elder's reponse on the thinking behind that.

 

Personally I believe in poetic licence - spell the words whatever the hell way feels good, long as peoepl can still understand them sure then what is the problem? Heh!

 

[Appy]

*bumps this to show of the centering feature* Thank you Rune!

[Kalypso]

It looks and reads much better. Nicely done.

[Ayshela]

and i still can't get beyond that awe-struck "yes!" at seeing my thoughts, my feelings, put into words.

[Beautiful Nightmare]

*hugs* i agree with my bro on poetic lisense thing! Wow i actually agree with alot of what he says! I really loved the poem hun keep up the good work! *hugs* u no i love u and am always here for you!

[Guest Skyline]

I'm sure you can think of a politer way to phrase that post. --Quincunx

Edited January 29, 2007 by Quincunx