serenesandiego

Happen In my heart of insecurity, I find that love lies there. But in your masculinity, I see that you don't care. Longing for simplicity, longing for someone to long for me, hiding behind a summer fling, a place of which to flee. Confusion fogs my heart and mind. I don't know what to think or feel. Just cooking up these mindless rhymes. Maybe someday it'll be real. But behind your egotistical self, I see truth hidden in the lies. It gives way to a whole new feeling. With your fishing line, it's me you're reeling, and I can't take this lack of healing of the pain you caused before. It still affects my inner core, my trust in others, now. It affects my self-control. It affects my loving soul. Here I am with a choice at hand. I know what I have to do. I have to finish strong to the finish line. I have to see it through. But what will happen when it ends? Will your kindled fire still burn? What will happen when I come back? Will there be anything that you've learned? Will you have grown? Will you have changed? Will you have experienced joy and pain? Will you have triumphed? Will you have lost? Will there be anything meaningful you've gained? From this experience there must be faith. With this separation, there must be trust. For all of time will my heart be stained with this feeling of love and lust? We have been broken. We have been burnt. We have been abandoned. We have been cursed. But it shall end when God shines His light into a world of new happiness and life. And we will live without regrets, and we will know how the story ends.