"Wolf-Lady, I still think-"
"Well, do you have a better idea, Stephen?" Tanny's voice was annoyed as she looked levelly at the Ranger, then looking down at the Standing Stones from a small hill. "Unless you tell me you can find a Portal just by sensing it through Earth!"
It was early evening, and they could see the soft glow of the torches, one sitting at the center of the circle of stones and three more placed further around it. Tanny rested eyes on them, feeling eerily detached all of a sudden. Stephen frowned, and touched her arm. "I still think it's a bad idea."
Startled, Tanny looked back at Stephen still with an annoyed expression. "You wanted to find a way to that place without having to get near the tribe again. After almost a week of scouting and looking for it, now you tell me it's a bad idea?"
"That place seems rather... unstable to my senses, Wolf-Lady. Even from this far, I can feel that there is something not purely earth on there."
"Is there anything at all in here that feels like pure something?" She sighed, letting her annoyance go and sitting on the ground, still facing the Stones. "I can believe you, though - there is something not quite right when we come from this side. The energies are not only vibrating, they are... resonating with something else." I wonder if that might mean the Portal is still there...
Stephen sat down next to Tanny, and after a while he asked, "Do you have any idea how Portals work?"
"Enough to know that I don't like them," she growled. "Little more than that, Stephen. That's magic, and I don't understand magic." Her voice was rueful.
Quietly, Stephen continued, "Portals are just that... doors to other realms. Like a door from one room to the other." He tried to reach memories that he had buried very deep, and succeeded only partially as he completed, "Their energy can be sometimes directed to real Gating, and that's about all I remember from my magic lessons."
Tanny chuckled wearily, "We just need a Mage now, right?" She looked at Stephen, but chose not to pursue it. "Do you remember how we activated that portal from the Orc Realm back to the Pen?"
"With rather a lot of commotion, confusion and a big bang. Right in front of a huge Orc army trying to trample us."
"I was rather asking about the actual opening of the portal, not the circumstances."
Stephen chuckled, "I know, but I needed a moment to let it come back. I seem to remember finding a spot in the earth that remembered the portal. Then you did something with it to open it again ..."
"Now if only I could remember what." Tanny made a face, and after some effort just shrugged. "There were a lot of wild energies around us... there was you, I, and those Orc shamans. I don't think it was exactly me who triggered it, Stephen."
She sighed wistfully and stared down at the Standing Stones for a while before speaking again.
"This isn't going to get us anywhere."
"We'll get somewhere eventually, Wolf-Lady. After all, this is the Pen we're trying to get to. How about we just try? Last time you managed just by instinct, perhaps you'll be able to do it again."
"You're being a bit too optimistic, aren't you, Ranger?" She looked at him with a grim smile. "But we have at least to try. Either that, or find someone with some magic-"
Some shadowy movement around the Standing Stones caught Tanny's eyes, and she stopped Stephen's question with a hand on his lips. ::Shhh... there's someone down there. One of them....:: As the almost-feline passed in front of a torch, she recognized her. ::The priestess - Amareyha.::
::I assume that if anyone here does magic, it's her. I wonder what she's doing, though.::
::From the way she's moving about, she seems to be waiting for something. And ... wait ... there are more of them.:: Tanny stared down intently for a little longer. ::It seems like those ... the ones that look like trainee-priestesses are with her.::
Stephen nodded, and after a minute added, ::And if they stay there, they're going to become very, very wet kitties.::
Tanny looked up a little surprised. ::What do you mean?::
::It's still rather far off, but there's a torrent of water heading their way. I can just barely hear it rushing closer, but it's becoming stronger already ... it must be approaching rather quickly.::
At that moment, Tanny noticed Amareyha and the Sam'ey'aren moving away from the stones to what looked like a safe distance.
::They know.::
::Hmm ... do you think they're waiting for it?::
::It's possible. With those cats, you never know. :: Frowning, still following them, Tanny added, ::At least these cats seem to not like water that much...::
Down at the Sam'ey, the junior priestesses made a loose circle around Amareyha, and soon the soft chanting reached Tanny's and Stephen's ears. Amareyha was silent, eyes fixed on the central stone, oblivious for a moment of what was going around her.
One more Kal'th... one more year. Will this be the different one? She answered to the chant of the Sam'ey'aren automatically, still half-lost in thoughts. The Spirits arrived, and then went into hiding. I have seen them at times, during the night - why are they avoiding us, Illonia? Was I at fault? Or is that a sign that more changes are to come? She turned to the direction of the flood, raising arms and joining the invocation chant. Illonia, Mother, guide us... guide me. I feel restless. Where does this desire comes from? Why I do not see myself leading the Tribe to the day You call me to your side?
The chant seemed to go on and on for very long, and Tanny wished she could shut her mind to it. It was starting to grate in her senses, the subtle changes in intonation sending waves of vibrations in different frequencies through her mind. She was startled when Stephen's hands touched her head.
::Take it easy, Wolf-Lady,:: he sent gently while massaging her temples. ::I don't think it's safe for us to lit a fire here so I can prepare you some tea...::
Tanny made a face, half-mumbling, ::I'm glad it's not safe, then... you need to find better herbs, or at least some that do not give me a reaction headache to them.::. She closed her eyes, letting Stephen's gentle fingers work tension away. ::Thank you, Stephen.::
As she relaxed, and trusting Stephen to keep senses on the priestess's ritual down the Stones, Tanny let her awareness flow and expand at will. The vibration that permeated the space around her still put her on the edge, but she forced herself to observe its flow in a detached way. Threads are no more than the way we choose to see the energies around us. You can consider them as lines, or floating specks of dust, or a stream. However you choose to see it, you have to know how to recognize them in spite of what your mind-sight tells you. The voice of Karala, the old High Priestess in the temple of Dyrenne, came back to Tanny's mind.
Stephen vaguely felt Tanny's awareness extending into the earth around them and realized that she was searching for the portal spot.
::I think it was somewhere near those stones, but please try not to interrupt their ritual.::
Tanny nodded slightly as Stephen's thought touched her mind, and shaped her perception towards the Stones. She hesitated, frowning at what seemed to be a wall in front of her. A wall of ... vibrating threads. Yes, they are threads. And I can work with them... forget the vibration. See their nature. She groped for anything familiar around her, faltering for a moment.
Sensing her faltering, Stephen instinctively sent out a protective, steadying sense of earth to stabilize her again. ::Someday you'll have to teach me how to do that on purpose, rather than by instinct, Wolf-Lady.::
::Any time you want, Ranger.:: She smiled, and then drew on Stephen's strength to steady herself as she reached out for one of the vibrating threads. Air. She gasped at the vaguely familiar touch, trying to resist the urge to retreat.
::Wolf-Lady?::
Steadying herself, Tanny forced herself to isolate and follow a single Air thread. ::Why can't they use plain Water in this place?!::.
::Hmmm...:: Stephen noted the gruff tone in his friend, and after some time studying what he felt from Earth and what he heard very faintly, he completed, ::Wolf-Lady, I believe your wish is about to come true. I don't know how those things go for you, but... brace yourself?::
Stephen's warning confused Tanny for just a moment, as she suddenly felt Water rushing to meet her. With a mental yelp, she hastily leaned on Stephen's shielding, opening herself just enough to both absorb and deflect the waves of watery threads battering her energy-sense. In spite of its almost subliminal vibration, Tanny felt comforted by the otherwise familiar touch, drawing a good measure of soothing and calm from them before slowly receding back to the hilltop.
"The flood," whispered Stephen, feeling through Earth how the waters filled the area of the Stones — an area that just then he recognized as a small flood-basin.
"Yes. It's filling fast." Still half-entranced by the energy-sense, and still shielded by Stephen, Tanny grasped his hand and let images fill her mind.
Water, rushing in from the channel so far hidden among tall grass and boulders strewn randomly. Flooding the basin, waters rising fast around the stones, swirling and splashing around the central one. The sam'ey'aren, all kneeling but for Amareyha, who stood with arms raised and looked just like a statue. The moon rising behind her.
Stephen drew a sharp breath, surprised as images flooded his mind as certainly as the rushing sound of water filled his ears. Tanny's whispered thought came in before he could retreat, ::No. Stay open to me.::
::Open? How-::
::Just don't fight it, and keep the... sense of earth.::
Stephen nodded and tried not to resist, which became harder as he focused on it. After a few moments and some irritated grunts from Tanny it suddenly clicked in his mind and the images continued to flow.
Amareyha lowered her arms slowly, timing it with the slowing of the flood. The resurrected River was now flowing steadily, feeding the small lake that already covered two-thirds of the central pillar of the Sam'ey. She waited until the water level reached the carving of the Goddess on the face of the stone, and then intoned a sharp syllable. Leaves behind her rustled as two acolytes stepped to her side, one of them offering a small statue with bowed head.
Illonia, Mother, what fate did you choose for me...? She took the chains the other acolyte offered her, and carefully placed them around arms and legs of the statue. With another sharp syllable, Amareyha dismissed the Acolyte of Chains. Another took her place, and the three of them went to the margin of the lake. The acolyte helped Amareyha out of her robe, and tied a scarf on her wrist. The priestess took the statue and dived into the lake.
As she swam towards the base of the central stone, Amareyha tried to sort out her feelings. What do I expect? What do I fear? She chained the statue to the stone, making sure it was well fastened, then braided her wrist-scarf into the links with the intricate pattern that identified herself to Illonia. Almost out of breath, she gave a final tug in the last knot, and kicked upwards, to the surface.
Up the hill, Tanny saw Amareyha surface without the statue, and also noticed the lack of the scarf. She kept eyes on the priestess while two acolytes robed her, some tension rising in her that she herself did not notice until Stephen queried softly.
::What's wrong?::
Tanny blinked, and mentally shook herself vigorously. Then, sighing, turned her back to the newly-formed lake. ::Let's find a better place to camp for the night... preferably in a place where no one would look for intruders.::
::There was a nice spot not far from here ... I doubt they'd visit there, but I'll scout the area just to make sure.::
It didn't take them long to get to the spot Stephen had in mind and make themselves comfortable with some of the food that they still had left. When they finished their meal, Tanny rested against a tree trunk and after a while sighed. Seeming almost talking to herself, she explained, "A week ago you asked whether I had repaired my empathic barriers. I actually don't think they can be 'repaired' — not in the sense of getting them back to what they were. They seem to still be a bit unstable right now-"
Tanny stopped abruptly, and the face Stephen could not see showed some internal struggle. After a moment, she continued as abruptly, "-I'm not sure what is happening, but there is a lot of confusion and doubt in Amareyha's mind. Centered on that lake, and that strange ritual we saw."
"Hmm ... you saw her diving into the lake with a statue, some chains and a scarf, but came up without all that stuff? I'm actually tempted to go and check that out, see if we can find any clues about what's going on. Perhaps those items and the ritual can help trigger our portal back. After all, we did appear right there."
Tanny shrugged, "Why not? We'll need to start somewhere, even if it doesn't seem like a good idea to try and open a portal in the middle of a lake."
With a chuckle, Stephen nodded. "We can start checking whether the tribe stays away from the stones tomorrow. If they do, we'll use the opportunity."
"Alright."
The silence stretched, with Tanny becoming more and more absorbed in thoughts. Stephen lit a cigarette, and for once made an extra effort to keep downwind from his brooding friend, while sorting out his own thoughts.
We'll need a portal back, but ... neither one of us really knows how to open it, or even to make sure it goes to the right place. And if there is enough of a memory of the last portal in the earth, we'll just end up at that weird place again where memories become reality.
Slowly exhaling the smoke of his cigarette, he let his thoughts wander on what would happen if they would actually be able to open a portal, and how big the chance would be it would end up in a familiar place. Suddenly, unbidden, a fragment of a lesson from his childhood returned to him.
A secret which the magi have long kept hidden is that new portals can no longer be created, not even in Ilistar. They do, however, have a set of historical portals which they can open and close as they desire. The only restriction is that they cannot make them end up at new destinations. Thus, they have all their possibilities carefully mapped out.
Frowning slightly, he wondered whether the same theory would apply here, or whether it was strictly tied to his own world.
Tanny gazed at Stephen, raising some barriers around her so that he did not notice her intent observation of him. Her eyes flickered in the moonlight, the normally silvery-gray having deepened to a bluish hue. There is more to you than you admit, Stephen. She recalled bits and pieces she had noticed in her friend since they had left the Keep through a wayward Portal, and started to see the vaguest of patterns in there. She shook her head lightly, still arguing with herself. Should I? Would it really help him, or just... break him? He has barriers on memories... almost as strong as mine.
With a soft sigh, Tanny hugged her knees still with eyes on Stephen, who suddenly addressed her.
"Tanny, you know more about magic than I do ... how much of a chance do you think there is of us ending up with a portal back to that weird place we came here from in the first place?"
"Honestly? Pretty big." Her voice was hushed, and a frown creased her expression. "A Portal is but a door. Unless it has been created with the intention of opening in different worlds, and even so one who uses it would need to know how to trigger it to the correct destination." After a pause, she continued, "I wish we had a choice in the matter, but..."
Picking up Tanny's meaning, Stephen finished her sentence for her. "We really don't, do we?"
"Well, our choice is staying or trying to go somewhere." Her voice was grim. "I don't work Portals, Ranger... unfortunately. That's pure magic." Though.... I wonder if I'm able to see through the web of energies it creates...
"Web of energies? What do you mean?"
Tanny started, a bit surprised at Stephen's ability to pick up her thoughts. "Hm... a Portal is nothing more than a complex weave of energies. My energy-sense is able to also sense magic being channeled, and occasionally detect their ... threads. I do not understand them, nor can I interfere with them, but I might be able to see them. For all the good it might do."
"Have you ever tried interfering with them? Who knows, it might actually help getting a good result ..."
"Or it might end up with us arriving in an even stranger world. Are you sure you're willing to take that risk?" She tilted her head, wondering whether he really was that crazy.
Stephen chuckled, "We run that risk anyway, so we might as well try to influence it to our advantage."
Tanny kept silent, though Stephen could feel her grudging agreement. She went back to her previous brooding, again focusing on what her memory insisted on recalling. She was so intent on following branching possibilities, that she was aware of Stephen trying to get her attention only when he prodded her gently through their earth-link.
::Wolf-Lady ... what are you thinking?::
::That it would be easier if you were not so stubborn,:: she answered in a half-teasing tone. Then, more seriously and making up her mind, she touched his arm. "Stephen, tell me what you did when you created the earth-shield around me."
For a few moments, Stephen thought that over.
"You know... that is a very good question. I know I sort of ... anchored my own sense to the earth around me, and I guess you used that to protect your weavings from the rushing water?"
"Hmm...." Tanny thought that over, then threw a grounding line for her using still the Water threads. It didn't feel as reliable as the normal earth-grounding she would use, but she did not need more than some hold on any familiar element — and Water seemed to be the least tainted by vibration so far. "Do it again please?"
Stephen harrumphed. "You still believe I actually know what I'm doing when it comes to that earth-stuff? In that case I think I still have a few barrels of Lemonoaid that need selling ..."
"Stephen!" She glared, shuddering at the thought. "Don't be stubborn. Just... do it? You were able to manipulate the threads... somehow. Can you See this?"
Tanny reached out for a flimsy thread of earth, nudging it until it stopped struggling and allowed itself to be braided into a simple cord. She let it glow softly, and nudged Stephen gently. ::Can you sense the weaving in any way?::
Frowning, he took a few moments to sense around himself, then suddenly noticed it and nodded.
"There is ... something all right."
::Can you pick it up?:: She let the weave drift towards Stephen, observing through her energy-sense.
With a straight face, Stephen stuck his hand out to where he sensed the threads to be and grasped a handful of air, holding it up with a triumphant grin. What he did not expect was the sudden tingling in his hand, almost like a shock, complemented by Tanny's smug grin that he could not see but sensed all the same.
"Right, my dear, smart Ranger... can you actually show me what you do with the earth threads?" There was a hint of amusement now in her voice, and Tanny settled down more comfortably. "This is not just out of the blue, Stephen. I won't be able to do much only by myself, as you should have noticed by now. It would be good if you could do consciously what you did by instinct so far. There might be more things hanging on that than just steadying me."
Stephen shook his head. "If you like, I could knit you a sweater with them, but I'd have to find those threads first. For all I know, there is just "the earth" as I sense it underneath my feet. Although, perhaps ... who knows, it might just be a blanket..."
Ignoring Tanny's confusion at his last remark, Stephen concentrated on the earth directly around him, this time not extending his senses in distance but in depth. He sat in silence for so long that Tanny started wondering whether he'd fallen asleep.
"Stephen?"
He briefly shook his head and tried to go deeper into his sense, trying to find those threads. After several more minutes, he spoke without letting go of his concentration.
"Do you think you can ... mark one single thread that runs underneath me?"
Tanny frowned, trying to make sense of what Stephen were trying to do. She did not answer, relaxing instead and concentrating on what she could feel through their earth-link. It dawned on her then that he was searching for a web of threads in the earth itself — the solid matter, and not the web of energies that hovered around anything solid. Deciding against clarifying him, she decided to tackle the problem from another angle.
::Stephen,:: she mind-spoke softly, ::Relax.::
She felt him blink, and Saw a wavering on the knot of energies close to him. Nodding to herself, she insisted again, ::Just relax, Stephen... feel the earth as you usually do — when you just try to get information from it.::
Stephen slowly relaxed and, still rather lost as to what Tanny wanted him to do, shifted his awareness to the usually soothing earth-sense that he relied onto. Tanny's voice intruded softly again, ::Trust me.::
Breathing slowly, Tanny let part of her awareness drift toward Stephen through their earth-link. At least unstable barriers might be useful for something, she thought ruefully as she used the trickle of empathy leaking through barriers to touch Stephen's foremind. ::See this?:: She focused on the earth strand glowing to her energy-sense, ignoring the vibration that made her clench her jaw.
Trying not to focus on it too intently, Stephen just kept his senses centered on the small area around himself. When he became aware of Tanny's thread, it came as such a surprise that he almost lost his contact.
::I sense something, yes.::
As he tried to focus on it, it seemed to be eluding his grasp, but after several attempts and a few curses muttered under his breath, he started getting the hang of it.
"I think I've got it ... at least I can sort of sense where it is without it slipping my grasp."
::Good.:: Tanny smiled, changing her weaving a bit. The cord of earth was now more similar to a small net, with nodes that glowed softly. ::Focus on the glowing nodes. Don't try to actually grasp them - just focus as close to them as you can. As if you were trying to fill your sight just with one of them.::
"Wolf-Lady, I still don't understand why you keep insisting that I can see those things. Even with my extra sense I'm just ... aware of various patterns and presences. You did change something though, didn't you?"
::I added some more threads to make a sort of net. See if you can find the points where the threads cross each other.::
With a frown of concentration on his brow, Stephen tried to sense the different threads. After a little while he thought he could sense where the different threads were in relation to each other and started focusing on the nodes instead. Picking one, he concentrated on it to try and get every single detail about it firmly in his mind. He blinked mentally in surprise as the node suddenly seemed to fade away and almost lost his hold on the earth-sense. He felt Tanny's characteristic touch, somehow steadying his link. Her voice came softly, ::Try to do it again with another node. Just focus - I have woven them in a way that they'll darken if they're touched by another's mind.::
Chuckling softly, Stephen couldn't help but grin. "You really can sort of see them, can't you? For me they just ... fade away, almost as if they suddenly stop existing."
"Fade away?" Tanny frowned in surprise, tilting her head inquisitively. "How so?"
"They become vague. Imagine holding someone's hand, and suddenly discovering that that person is a ghost."
Block. A very deep one. She nodded slowly, nudging a glowing node right in front of Stephen's mind-eye and keeping him busy with chasing nodes for a while, using the time herself to think of her options.
Tanny slowly unraveled the weaving. I must not. I cannot. But without his help... Carefully, she wove Water around him and let it refresh and clear his mind. Be strong, Stephen, please... without a bare minimum of control, what I need do to will probably destroy us both. She monitored the small, subtle healing weave as it hovered around the Ranger. It is only your awareness that I need to nudge back to life.
Stephen sagged as the Water-weave was dispelled, and only then noticed a rather suspicious headache telling him of its existence. He groaned softly, feeling suddenly very tired.
"Just relax, Stephen." Tanny's voice was as gentle as her hands rubbing his shoulders, deftly working on the tension points and helping his muscles unknot. "You might want to try one of your concoctions, they'll probably help the headache."
"What-"
"Reaction headache. It comes with the effort of controlling elemental threads.'
"I wasn't controlling anything!" His voice was almost a growl, though Tanny's massage was starting to ease his body and mind. Sighing, he shook his head. "What was all that about?"
"You were actually touching a couple Earth threads, Stephen. Nudging them, though just very slightly." She smiled at the sudden tension she felt under her hands, and proceeded to work it out. "I also noticed how quickly you were able to follow their movement by the end of the exercise, dear Ranger."
Confused, Stephen tried to recall what he had actually done. He could only remember focusing his mind on glowing knots in front of him, passing on to the next as soon as one faded away.
"I think that next I have to teach you to keep barriers in place... relax, Stephen. You're broadcasting." Tanny's soft chuckling interrupted his thoughts, and he started to answer when she hushed him again. "Turn your earth-sense towards you, Stephen. Draw it in. Now."
Her voice was suddenly so sharp, that Stephen instinctively recoiled and pulled his awareness of earth back into himself. He was even more confused and surprised as his friend said, "Thank you - you were starting to give me a headache."
Laughing softly as he pulled a few leaves from one of his pouches and started brewing a tea out of them, he said, "That would only be fair, wouldn't it? So what, exactly, was that torture you were putting me through all about?"
"That was a very very basic exercise, Stephen. One that we used at the Temple with those too eager or too anxious to be able to succeed in Weaving... I guess it works well in other situations too." She gazed into the forest around them, voice somewhat hushed and a hint of unwillingness to talk that Stephen caught. But in spite of it, Tanny continued. "The point is that 'touching' elemental energy-threads is much more focusing on them than reaching out to grasp a real thread. Once you're able to focus, you're just a step away from 'nudging' them."
After a pause, Tanny continued with a wry smile, "We just need now to make you see the threads on your own... and not through my energy-sense."
"Before we start that, though, you might want to come up with a reason why I'd want to start giving myself headaches."
Tanny chuckled wearily, working on her own headache. "If you really want me to find a way to trigger a portal back to the Pen, I'll need your help. I'm unable to ground properly here, I'm unable to fine-control elemental threads... hell, I'm just unable to get my energy-affinity working in here." She grimaced, standing up abruptly and taking some steps away from the fire - and from Stephen's cigarette.
She let silence grow for a while, conscious that Stephen was saying something but just too intent on her own thoughts to actually listen to him.
"And you think I can somehow he..."
Realizing that Tanny wasn't listening, he lapsed into silence and watched her for a while before mentally nudging her.
::Wolf-Lady? What's bothering you?::
::Memories.:: answered her curtly, making it rather clear to Stephen that she did not want to discuss those with him. Going back to her brooding, she unconsciously clenched her hand. Air. Opposite Earth, incompatible in normal weaving. But one subtle enough to not create too many ripples around magic energies. And the need of a strong grounding line to be able to control it without the Training.
Stephen nodded and leaned back, knowing that she'd need some time to mentally sort things out .