If i was dead would anyone care?
If i was dead, would anyone be lost in dispear?
I feel so useless
I want to end this.
is this how life should be?
Pain and sadness deep in me.
If i was dead would anyone cry?
Would anyone be there to say their goodbye?
Life is not for me
But the people around me do not see
That life is not ment for everybody
Some would rather be dead-like me.
I wonder why i want to die so badly
I was brought up hating everything about me
When i was eleven i first wanted to die
I used to sit in my room and just cry.
Cutting myself didnt help the pain
I just went deeper into depression and shame.
I was ashamed of who i am
Upset cos no-one gave a damn
I hated myself inside and out
Driving me insane, at myself i used to shout:
"Why cant i be pretty? Why do i feel this way?"
I still hate myself a little more each day.