Peredhil

Hate is a serpent which seeps venom, Always most damaging to the self. The target walks free, unscathed, Even as the serpent twists, In pain from its own poisons. Love for me never lets me free; Eternally I am vulnerable in my heart. There-in lies the rub you see - I find that love is not enough. That a relationship needs balance and flow. Given that relationships end in reality, Obviously I must take my pain, and Hurt. I let it go.

Nicely done! I think... I forget...

I think she meant the border north of you while you're travelling. She's north of Boston if I recall. Helpful Peredhil

Yui 're a wizard of :wizzie: words Yui 're gentle as a butterfly Yui 're graceful as the birds (I needed a rhyme that time! ) Yui 're the birthday girl of shadows And fewmets are Dragon - (uh, droppings :woot: ) Happy Birthday!

Peredhil wistfully looks North. If'n y'all make it down South to the D.C. area, y'all send me one of them there PMs, ya hear?

Hmm. I think Appy's right. Things have been getting reactionary in my posts, and I'm a big part of the problem. I apologize. BPO - In many a college lounge lizard meeting, and after considering this very point in reaction to thought-provoking science-fiction and/or fantasy novels, I've come to the conclusion I have. Having explored some of the changes I've made over time, in many cases it was in a reaction to something unpleasant long ago. If I'd removed some small thing that triggered one of my choices forty years ago, such as feeling unappreciated by my siblings, I really don't think I'd make as much effort to look beyond the surface of people as I do. If I hadn't been a such a successful liar in my teens, and had the time to see and experience the long reaching effects of even the simplest lies, I probably wouldn't be the integrity fanatic I am. But this is too simplistic. I rarely have only one reason for things I do. Usually there are a multitude of factors I juggle, and eventually they break a threshold into some type of decision. The synergy of everything is who I am. Much of me is a reaction to some "bad" thing I've done or witnessed, or had done to me. But that's ME. And that has been my frustration of late. I don't mind a thousand people stating opinions, I think it's really cool to get a glimpse into another mind. But opinions are like preferences for pizza. there's no quantitative proof that would allow me to stretch my opinions onto others. It's like my experiences with feelings. My feelings just ARE. I've been able to choose my actions and words, and to act on or ignore my feelings, but I've never been able to control them, having them come or go at whim. The best I can do is set up situations or events that tend to lure them out - reading a favorite book for a happy moment perhaps. With that as a factor in my own life, I wouldn't feel comfortable in telling someone else how they should or shouldn't feel. I could suggest ways they could try to change their perceptions of events if they indicate they don't like how they feel - but it is still their choice and I'm not offended if they ignore me. I'm a fanatic on choice too, as has prolly come through strongly lately. Hugs everyone. It *IS* a good question, and one I've considered several times in several ways. I just have the answer which I would choose, based on how my internal processes work. I'd be surprised if one answer fit everyone - I've never been considered the baseline for "normal"!

I'm sorry, I thought my answer to regret was implicitly obvious in my reply. I didn't realize that this was a judged contest, or if not, that the feedback level was greater than three. I can definitely see how people would be offended - Regel's reply when taken in context shows some scale which he is using that isn't explained. Shrugs. If we hadn't suspended our disbelief, how could we "what if" our answers? I look at the answers and see considered thoughts. Personally, I considered it and decided that changing my past would be something I wouldn't want to do. The question as stated wasn't have we "experienced a moment of regret", it was have we "experienced a moment of regret we would go back and change...". One is an searching for a memory, and then considering an action based on that memory. The other is just evaluating the action. But really, I know we're all on the same side, I usually enjoy these questions - but that's because we all get to express our views, owning them and acknowledging that while our opinions and views may be different than others, they won't be judged or attacked. Whether it was meant or not, I felt judged. That feeling has kinda spoiled further consideration on this topic for me. Which is my problem and feeling, regardless of the triggering source. My choice to react, and my choice builds into who I am, and who I'll choose to be - which is one reason I don't bother with regret. The person I was made the choice based on who that person was at the time. That person is gone now, and I remain. Tomorrow may see a different "I", but I hope that person will still be trying to learn from the past and looking toward the future. -A miffed Peredhil

the "bippy" is most famous for being a catch phrase in the late 1960s on the Rowan & Martin Show (which gave us first appearances of such little-known talents as Artie Johnson, Lily Thomlin, and Goldie Hawn among others). "You bet your bippy" was only one of the phrases that sank into every day culture. "Sock it to me" was another, and the German Soldier peering from behind his bush and saying, "Veeeerrrry Interesting, but Schtoo-pid" was another. Prolly the height of the bippy craze was a really silly movie called "The Maltese Bippy" which had werewolves and vampires if I recall. Bippy is also a difficult to obtain purplish-grey mottled berry in one of my FARS worlds, from which a drink is made which reminds me strongly of Archmage's Ole Peculiar. -Helpful Peredhil

It's a balancing act on a razor's edge: Who to trust and who to flee. Don't give up and run from all, Because then you'd run from me! *Pounce, huggle*

Happy birthday Matteo/Foe Calibur.

No, I don't think so. I am the sum of all I've experienced in my life. The choices I've regretted I've looked at and determined not to do again. I might not have made certain choices unless they were driven by a reaction to the thoughtless pains I've caused to others, for instance. If I changed something, I'd be someone else, someone I don't know.

happy birthday(s) -P'

That's true, Ayshela. With out the PMed character descriptions of all three of my dates, I'd never have been able to work them into stories. Huggles Thank y'all for helping me to write for you. -Peredhil

Falls out lauging into a lake of fire and BURNs.

cries Great idea. I still owe Tanny info! If I can ever find time and brain, I'll send something to you both. If I don't before you go public, just skip me! *hugs* come on Penners! Let support Quill Quests! -P

*hugs* Happy Birthday! If you can find Orlan to make it happen, I give you 5 geld from me to you.

I'm with Finnius. Home is people. Home is where I can sleep deeply with the door unlocked, and if it opens I wake up anticipating who it is rather than "should I be concerned who this is?"

You know, while I was reading Cryptomancer's post, it really struck me how odd it is that I resonate to so many lines people are posting. Great Thread, Oh Aged LoreMaster

Guilds bring Carnival; Participation explodes! Sweet vindication...

Waddding up yet another sheet of paper, Peredhil petulantly throws it at the waste basket, where it hits the rim and bounces off onto the floor. He glares at it for a few moments, then sighs and gets up and carefully puts it into the trash so no one will feel they have to clean up after him. Picking up his quill, he gnaws on the end and sighs. Guido walks in. "Yo Boss, how dey hangin'?" "Not well, not well at all. I can't seem to get this syllable stresses thing down. " "Well, whatsa prob?" "You see, there are certain syllables which are pronounced stressed, and others softer in speech. I can't seem to hear them to do these strictured poems." "E'er t'ink it might be 'cause youse talks funny? 'I caunt seem to he-yah dem ta doo deese strrrrrictur-ed poh-emmms.' Maybe if'n youse didn't conversate likes a cross 'tween William Shatner and Peter O'Toole, youse'd have a better try." He looked at Peredhil's face. "uh... Boss." "Do you really think that could be it? It's hard enough not to sing. This tongue is so atonal. Even Mandarin has three pitches for words. I must muse on this. Thank you my friend." After standing and hugging Guido, he strides from the writing chamber deeply in thought. "Great guy, but he sure conversates funny."

Have you ever watched TV with the sound off, and listened to a record/CD with the sound on, and had the two synchronize? (Dean Martin sang Knights in White Satin PERFECTLY) Have you ever walked home after a long night of drawing dungeons, listening to the "hema-hema" of the grass against your jeans, and had the dawn spill over - and hear the opening chords of a song at the sight? Have you ever had pectoralis excavata (dip in the sternum) and used it to store M&Ms while watching TV, or sucked your tummy in and out in the bathtub to watch the water run in and out of the dip? Have you ever gone to a Mall and thrown Hula-Hoops from the Dollar Store as far down the Mall corridor as you could, with a back-spin to make them come back, until the clerks chased you out? Have you ever passed gas right before leaving an empty elevator, minutes before the lunch-time rush? Have you ever jumped from one wake to another while waterskiing, or held the rope in your toes? Have you ever jumped rope while log-rolling? Have you ever taken long car drives at night, just to free your mind to think out writing or gaming plots? Have you ever gone out to your car during a rain storm, just to watch the patterns of water running down the windshield?

W00t! Five more geld... Well thought criticism on each piece, fun contest. Nicely judged. nods Begins conspiring about the Bachelorette Auctions with Wyvern...

Gratz! And to think I dated her before she was big and famous.

'Bout time! Hugs

*hugs* Coming from a line heavily "tainted" with such things as bipolar, depression, schizophrenia, etc, I felt a resonance with this. These are the fears I faced - should I take the chance of passing these potentials into the next generation? Well written cry from the heart.